We have gotten way off topic here. I think the OPs questions were answered many time over, so I am going to go ahead and close this.
Thanks for your participation.
This is really long, but in typing it, I feel the message was only conveyed in the entire text from this scene.
This is an excerpt from James Herriots Dog Stories
Chapter 8
The Card Over The Bed
Then the head on the pillow turned to me again. I have only one fear. Her expression changed...