im glad you are feeling better. keeping yourself distracted should help a lot. if i might suggest a book, Eragon, by Christopher Paolini,( im not sure i spelled that right) is marvolous, not to mention written by a homeshcooler.
im so sorry scm, i dont think i could survive if i lost all my birds. i saw in a different thread that your not a christian, but could i pray for you? i know that if i was in your situation, i would feel better if someone would pray for me.