Anyone lost any children??

[jessupfamily]

I have had 5 miscarriages (anywhere from 8 weeks to 13 weeks), 5 full term births and one still born baby boy and am currently 11 weeks pregnant! We discovered the miscarriages were caused from no progesterone, so I do take progesterone as soon as I find out that were pregnant. Our baby boy died from me having a high fever, at around 25 weeks. I carried him for 1 and a half weeks knowing he had died. That was extremely hard! We decided to induce my labor at home and try to have as normal of a home birth as possible. Our children were there (and they had been prepared for what to expect) and even though it was hard there were blessings in having the control over my experience. We were able to hold him and bury him on our land. That was a blessing to our family!
Amy J.

 

[hsm5grls]

I have lost two babies. I think the hardest part is that aching in your arms to hold a baby that you don't have. It is a weird pain that unless you have felt it you can't describe. It is both a physical and mental pain and to some extent it never leaves. My first baby would have been 14 on march 16. To this day I would love to touch her, Hold her in my arms. It just never leaves. The second was a very early miscarriage about 10 weeks. I still think of that baby too. I would love to have known if it was a boy or a girl. Look in it's face. Time doesn't heal it just numbs it a little better.

 

[country freedom]

I have a boy, boy, girl, boy, boy, LOST a girl(at 5 months pregnant), had another girl. Jamie-Marie Billups would have been 12 this year--and it still hurts inside my heart, I long to know what she looks like. My boys look like their dad, my oldest girl looks like me, although where she got her beautiful doe eyes,we don't know, no one on either side has eyes like hers, and my youngest girl can pass for Puerto Rican or Island girl, even though ALL my children have the same dad. All my children are multi-racially mixed with skin tones of shades of brown. Dad's side is African-American, Cherokee(I think), and my side is Cherokee, Irish, Scottish, German. No, the pain of losing a child never leaves, and is at it's sharpest around the times of the "birth", and holidays. To help me pass her first year birthday, I baked a cake, and had cake and ice cream and I explained to my children that I needed to celebrate in order to let go.

 

[BarbK]

I have been pregnant three times and lost one each time. The first two didn't really affect me because I was very young and an unwilling participant in the conceptions.
The third one however I am still dealing with. I lost him at the begining of the second trimester. Lexi was attached high and he (I say he on gut instinct) was attached very low and had ripped away. Alexis is 41/2 and I still have trouble when I see twins.
I am not sure if I can have kids anymore. I wasn't supposed to be able to have my daughter. Lexi was a premie, born at 71/2 months into my pregnancy. (I had trouble keeping track of weeks) Two weeks before she came via emergency c-section I was diagnosed with cervical cancer. I have had two more scares since her birth.

 

[nccountrygirl]

I to have lost 4 babies in beteen 12 and 14 weeks. I have two children from a previous marriage but DH wanted a baby so badly that we tried 4 times and lost each one. It's a pain that will never go away but I know that when I get to heaven that my babies will be there waiting for me.

 

[tazcat70]

I wasn't going to post but well here I am. I am sorry for all your losses.

I have 2 miracle children and have had 3 miscarriages.

I had 2 miscarriages, one lost about 5+ weeks, in 1995 2nd baby stopped growing at 6+ week DNC at 12 weeks. DR told me it was for the best, natures way of taking care of defects, etc. I tried to be positive, at least we were sure I could get pregnant now.

In 1996 I became pregnant with my son, started bleeding at 6 weeks. In the ER on Mother's day, no heartbeat. Followed up a few days later and we saw the most amazing sight, his heart pumping away. He was born at 37 weeks, healthy.

In 1999 I became pregnant again. I called my DR at 4 weeks and told them my history and begged to have an appointment, they set it up for 12 weeks. At 8 weeks I started bleeding, called my DR and I already knew what they were going to tell me when I had the U/S. DNC 2 days later.

Went to a new DR, to find out what was wrong with me, because I wanted to get pregnant again. We decided it was not the right time and so didn't follow up with all of the testing.

4 months later (early 2001) I became pregnant. I called the DR BEFORE my period was due, she got me in the next day. We still were unsure what was wrong, she put me on progesterone, and we did a few tests. Found out I have Antiphospholipid Antibodies. I was sending tiny blood clots to the babies, and killing them. So for my pregnancy with my daughter I gave myself twice daily injections of heprin. (a blood thinner) She was born at 38 weeks. I was a wreck by the time she was born. I learned during her pregnancy how women can "not know" they were pregnant. I knew I was pregnant but did not even start forming a bond with her until I was 23 weeks. (the time that a baby can possibly live outside the womb)

I found out that my son is a total miracle, he only had a 15% chance of survival with out the shots. All I can think is that maybe I had taken some asprin while I was pregnant with him.

If you have suffered from multiple early miscarriages please have this test run.

As hard as it was to find out that I was doing it, it was good to know why.

Tonya

P.S I did not take any birth control except for the 6 months after my son was born.