Ever see the show Quantum Leap? Where he stepped in at crucial moments in people's lives and changed the situation for the better. I always used to wonder about that too. My MIL was all set to go out west to work at a mountain school she had spent one summer in. It was what she really wanted, but they didn't call and she got nervous. The school where she was working was pressured her to make up her mind, they said they would fill her position if she didn't sign the contract. So she signed it. When she got home that very day the message on her machine said she had gotten the job in Montana. She had signed a contract and felt she could not go back. During the following year she met the man she married. It was not a happy marriage, but if she had not had that happen my wonderful husband and beautiful children would not be here........ What would have become of all of us had she asked the school to wait one more day?
Every day.... I am constantly asking myslef " What if I had been home when our house caught fire 5 years ago ? Would my bestfreinds children have survived the fire and would they be driving , going to college , getting married, changing the world.. What if I had been home and died as well ? What then would have happened to my adopted children? would they be in an abusive home or taken into foster care? What if I hadnt called the police when their mother hit my now DS ? Would they have worked their lives out and been fine ? Or could they still be malnurished/ obese, with no attention, no muscle tone due to not being allowed to play? Would my oldest still be stealing food from the trash .. Sorry my mind just kinda spewed when i saw this post... I think we just have to do what feels right and trust the universe to guide us where we should be and what we should be doing..
I'm sure every one has the "What if's" questions....I've had them..... Now I'm hoping more and more that I can ask ask "What will you make of this Lord?" If I'm so sick I cannot move and the doctors cannot find the answer......Personally now, I'm looking around for what the Lord is doing through this situation. Who's being blessed? What am I to see, hear and learn...What am I to speak, if at all. When there are tragedies and yes there are plenty in the world, I am trying to focus on looking for God to reveal Himself or use this time to His Greater Glory....It may not be immediate, but I've lived long enough to see some revealing....And some others may see but not me.... If I spin in circles doing the Why Why Why, Why me and What if song and dance as I call it,,,,,,I may miss the sweet whisper of "I'm over here....Didn't you see me in the kind eyes of the old man in the ER when they wheeled in your Dad?.....or didn't you see me in the face and whispered words of your neighbor's four year old when you cried after your Mother died and he said to you, "I'm so sorry you lost your Mummy...If I lost my Mummy, I would go and find her"... I think it's human nature to wonder...to puzzle over life.....One of my favorite songs is "when you get to heaven" or I think it's the name of it. And the blessings of an everyday person are recounted to them..... Well, thanks for a most intellectually and spiritually interesting question......In sum, my desired answer is "What now Oh Lord is in Your plan ....What will turn this tragedy into a triumph"....
My what if's scare me so i tend not to think about it to much . What if all 3 of my kids end up with muscular dystropy like my DD, what if my husband dies?,we don't have life insurance for him. what if my husband is compleatly bed ridden how am I going to be the bread winner and a caretaker?, what if my son's adhd/ocd/asperger's/tourette's gets worse. What if we are unable to pay the bills and lose our handicapp acessable home. Right now on the bright side, we had a fire 6 years ago and no one was hurt , we had a bad car accident and we didn't get hurt and we didn't lose my DD because I was pragnant coming home from an amnio when it happened,the amnio came back she didn't have down syndrome like they suspected. My youngest son didn't misscarry at 19 weeks like the dr's prodicted due to major placenta abruption and he was born large(10.9lbs!) and healthy. My DD now 4 started off really weak but has grown stronger, her muscles are weakened but she's doing so well! When she broke her femer in sept she was on full bed rest flat on her back in a hospital 45 mins from home, not a tear was shed by her to go home, she was pain free by day 3 and never had swelling or bruising. She walks with just a slight limp now. My husband has kept the same job for 10 years and continues to work even with his muscular dystropy getting worse. So much hardship,so much thankfulness
