Hello dear journal... it has been a long time since i last posted and... i am not bringing good news. I am at work right now (nightshift, like last summer) and my wife called me to tell me what have happent in the basement. So i start my post.
I have no idea why the best chicken has to die of some random reason. Why? What is going on with this? How the h**l the huge meatbirds managed to survive all the heat waves that past and....
MY BELOVED LITTLE CUTE SHY CHICKEN.... DIED!!!!
Before i manage to express how i feel and get very emotional... here is what happent:
Day 1:
JUST yesterday, while the flock free-ranged, i did my regular in and out of the house to throw our left overs. I thought all the flock "took off" and attacked the left overs at full speed. There was alot of food there including spaggeti that got covered with soil and the flock had to search very slow to find it. After some 20 minutes, i go out again just to look at them and then i noticed,
my white chicken was missing! (with the minimal experience i have gained, i learned that if you dont see some chicken out of the coop, its dead, so i assumed it was) I go to the yard and as i walked to the coop i was already thinking this freaking question "
WHY?" i look in the coop and there it was standing and looking around a little lethargic...i thought of what i have read here in BYC lethargic=sick, so i took my little one inside and setup the old cage of the rabbit, for the chicken. Nothing other than water and food. That chicken was always at the bottom of the pecking order and all the flock was pecking it
i had to split their chicken feed in 3 different places in the coop to make sure that chick gets some... with that said, the chicken started eating and i was so glad there was hope.. i went out and started some gardening crap out there until it got dark and i released the chick in the coop again as it seemed to be ok.
Day2:
The chick was out of the coop, in the run, with her meatbird "friends", eating here, scratching there. Everything looked ok then. Later in the day when i gave them some more left overs i opened the coop number 1 first, then i opened coop number 2. All good. There was no reason for me to pay attention. I left them all free and went in the house. Later, i went outside and made a call again, just to check on them(sometimes they escape to my sisters yard and poop her pavings which is something she doesnt respect) they were all there... exept MY chicken.... i rushed to the coop to look upon a dying chick, completely lethargic, laying down like dead
This is what have happen outside. After that i took it inside again to isolate it.
Day2(inside):
I placed the lethargic chicken in the rabbits cage, with some of our food (peas and some beef) some chicken feed, and for the first time i used the vitamin pack i bought months ago just in case. I diluted it and since the chicken could not drink by itself, i used one of my dauthers toy-spoons (tiny) and fed the chicken, 6 peas and about 5-10 spoons of water, i say 5-10 because at some point while her head was dropping on the floor the water got out. Then i placed a piece of cloth like a pillow for her to lay her head and i went back out for some gardening. Late evening before i start to get ready for work, i checked it and it looked the same, sleeping, lethargic, no poop to examine, peaceful and i thought it might be recovering. Then at some point i left for work.
Day2(at work):
My wife calls,
W

y where have you been i called earlier too
Me:I was busy doing (something random)
W: Oh... ... ... its gone.
Me: NOOO!!!!!!!
W: Only if you listened to it.... poor thing
Me: How? why? what happent? (i cry as i type this)
W: It sounded like if it was a dog in the basement
Me: (again, more) Nos, hows, whys
W: It was probably the sound of (i dont know in english the word for death spasms)
Me: (again, more) Nos, hows, whys
W: Poor thing....
Me: no sound for some time, trying to figure out the answers to the why and how questions
Me: Could you help it? did you see it dying? how it looked like? did it suffer for a long time?
W: No, as soon as i heard it and went right down in the basement it was already dead laying down. You will see it tomorrow
Me: no sound..........tears come up.........
Me: Ok, take care, goodnight
The end of the story.
Some words for the chick, which for me and my wife was the most kind and sweet animal. Our baby daughter (second birthday tomorrow, or today since its 2:00 here) she loved her too. I trusted this chicken so much, i had no problem to let my daughter play with her. My family watched this egg turning from day 1 becoming a little helpless chick that needed some human attention and got plenty. The other 2 eggs incubating hatched but the chicks died and so the white one was all alone. BYC told me how to make it a little intresting in the incubator+brooder box, and i placed a little mirror for company and a fluffy toy for pillow. Everything was great, i loved picking up the little one and petting it, but cold tremors always made me to put the chick back to the brooders lonelyness before i get enough of the petting. After about a month i bought 2 chicks the same size with mine, so she could make friends. I still remember the first moves of my chicken when i placed her 2 new frightened friends in the brooder box, she did not peck at them, she took care of them! She pecked gently cleaning their heads and never bothered them. She learned from their habits and they all played together indoors and outdoors as chicks. Then i completed the second coop and moved them there, because the flock number 1 never liked them (the reason they still live in the nonsense coop) The chicks friends ended up meatbirds and not egg-birds and doubled their size compared to my chick. They started pecking at it, after they learned the pecking habbit from my other flock. My little one could never eat in peace, she was always hunted if she dared to get some, but she did.
I really hope that right now as the soul travels to the unknown or floats around me for the last times, remembers all the words i spoke to her tonight before i leave for work. "its nice where you are going, dont worry my little chick" i talked and petted her as she was laying in the rabbits cage, with closed eyes and weak breath.
Dont worry my dear i told her, dont be afraid, i will see you in the morning.
Tomorrow its my daughters birthday and we have a little private family party. However i dont plan to throw the body of this chicken in the garbage, like i did with the other chickens. This one was brought to life by me and i feel like just "getting rid of it" is not a nice thing to do at all. This one was MY chicken, a part of myself. It meant to me that if you really want to, if you focus, you can easily create life, in my case using a little bit of technology and a big portion of love and dedication, when you execute the recipe and you have success in creating life, you dont just throw that life in the garbage. The body of the chicken represents the life it lived and for me all that life was in a small part of my life and but got a big place in my heart.
We own a tiny piece of land near my house, where my house and yard can be seen from, one option is take the chick there and the other option is take it to another place where the grave of my 14 year old dog is. Those 2 could probably share some company. I will decide where we ll make that "funeral" tomorrow. I am not sure if my wife will agree to come there with my daughter, but whatever. For me i know what is the right thing to do.
Peace to all of you
Goodbye journal, i hate you for being a digital journal, always there for me. I cant loose you, i cant tear you apart and throw you away, i can just type in my experiences and log them here in BYC FOREVER, no matter what goes right or wrong.