Oh no! I’m so sorry you had such a traumatic experience! Second guess and learn later, do not be hard on yourself at all. There are many, many, many who don’t believe in assisting at all, for many reasons, so please do not feel like the result would have been different, there is absolutely no way to know and just as much chance it could have ended the same way. It’s impossible to be there for everything or know when to be.
Let’s focus on the baby destined to be your little bestie right now! Are you a part of the various Facebook groups? I would post there to see if we can find someone local quick with age appropriate birds. Let me know if you are not or need help. Then I would call all the local feed stores tomorrow morning. While TSC isn’t doing chicks right now, my local feed store still is each week. One also could be doing an order early this week that you could jump onto.
Lastly, most of the hatcheries will let you still order for shipping on Monday if you call Monday morning.
When I’ve had a solo loud mouth or particularly attached baby I tuck them under my chin. I’ve got a scruffy beard, it’s warm, and my hands are at least free.
A baggy sweater pocket works well too.
We would love to see photos when the baby is out!!!