Okay, so I am a recent college graduate and am only just starting my life as an independent adult. This sequence of life changes has prompted me to consider becoming more self sufficient in providing food for myself and my family. I am an avid fisherman and hunter - I don't have a problem pulling the trigger on a wild animal or throwing a fish in a cooler. However, I do not feel comfortable with slaughtering my own livestock. My main question for this post would be : How do I get myself comfortable with this? I have butchered coturnix quail that I raised from eggs on an occasion or two, and this really bothered me. And by bothered me, I mean that I felt sick to my stomach for several days over butchering animals that I had raised myself. I am seeking some advice from people who have struggled with this same thing and can offer me tips on how to get past it.
Thankyou all!
I am/was the same way. I have been hunting and watching/helping the butchering of wild animals since I was 6 or 7 years old... So after 35 years of hunting and butchering I thought I wouldn't have a problem with butchering my own farm animals. Oh boy how I was wrong. There is a monumental difference between pulling a trigger from a distance and literally holding an animals head while you slit its jugular (or however you choose to do it.)
Now, I should state that even though I have hunted all of my life I still almost always shed tears for the animals I kill, but I always eat the animals I hunt (unless predators or pests such as ground hog) so I continue to hunt for eating purposes.
I think there are 3 components to what makes farm animal slaughtering so difficult for me: the fact that I must gauge the effort necessary for a quick death by my own hand, the proximity of the animals to myself, and that I have taken care of these animals every day of their lives.
What has made it easier for me (at least when starting out) was to (a) start with a**hole chickens... I recommend starting with a bad rooster or cockerel or two, (b) start with a quick kill device where your modulation of power is reduced such as sharp loppers or the pipe cutter decapitation method, and (c) a few nips of your favorite courage liquid.
There is no better way to start being comfortable with butchering your own chickens than to start with nasty roosters- you will not have too much trouble dispatching them with loppers or decapitating them since nasty roosters suck to live with.
When it becomes time to dispatch chickens that you do not hate, that is when the mental anguish really takes over and I have to do a whole lot of reasoning with myself. At first the anguish and sleeplessness lasted for days. As other poster said, you must remember that you gave it a good life, this is their purpose for you, etc. this is the time when you need to really up your mental reasoning game.
After awhile though, it becomes much much easier. One reason it becomes easier is that you are just much better and more competent at the mechanics of the job. The other reason it becomes easier is that you will start to see the problems that arise from NOT butchering members of your flock.. Chickens stop laying, feed bills get higher (with nothing to show for it), chickens get old and picked on by flock mates, harassed hens, overbreeding, etc.
I have been butchering my chickens for several years now but until this year had only done injured hens and boys. I couldn't stand the idea of butchering laying hens last fall so I didn't do it. Well, 75% of my hens went into a long molt so I fed and cared for 38 chickens all winter and got about 4 eggs a day. Not cool. Spring came around and the older chickens are having trouble getting off the roosts, the predators are catching up to them more easily, one had a heart attack, another got ascites, another had laying issues, another got an impacted crop, etc.
After losing so many chickens and not even being able to eat them after all these years of care I have changed my tune on hens- and it took me allowing them to live too long to understand for myself that all of my chickens are better off with routine culling.
Not sure that helped... But I hope so.
Good luck!