How do you Mend a Broken Heart? ***Hello Katie***

[Iowa Roo Mom]

When my dog Scooby died at 19 years old, I went from a poodle x to a pit bull x three weeks later. Granted, my brother got him for me BEFORE I thought I was ready, but how could I turn away that little ball of cute. Turns out Diesel is nothing like 'ol Scoob, but he was everything I needed at the time.

As someone said before, you'll know when the time is right, and you'll know which one is right. Just follow your heart, and big

to you.

 

[CoyoteMagic]

Ok, I'm ready to talk about her now. God, my heart was ripped out again!! I wanted that baby so much. Here's the story.

The Rescue that was trying to place LadyBlue was doing it as a "courtesy" placement for some folks who have the dog. Seems Mom likes the puppy, kids are warming up to her and Dad wants her gone! They are going to "try" and keep her, working on some training and such. But if that doesn't work, they would like to consider me in the future.

How do you "try" to love a puppy?! I will be fine. I'm just worried about this little girl that somewhere in a couple of months they are going to decide it is too much of a hassle to keep "try"ing and she is going to be left with no place to go.

On the other hand, I can't hang on to the thought maybe she will come to me. Maybe is a lot of empty space. I have told myself that it's not going to happen and am moving on (you know that glimmer is still back there)

I just had a phone interview with a nice lady named Monica from the AuCaDo of Michigan. I am looking at possibly adopting one or (maybe 2) of their puppies. Little bitty things that are deaf. http://acdrescuemi.tripod.com/availablespecialneeds.htm

I'm really partial to girl dogs as I'm sure ya'll know. I've got "feelers" out all over looking for that just right puppy that will capture a part of that spot that in my heart that is empty right now. I'm looking at a Special Needs puppy in part to honor the special dog that Spook was. She gave me what I need to be able to care for a puppy like that. A puppy that lots of people wouldn't even give a second look.

I've been turned down in a bunch of places because they won't adopt out of state so when I get someone who will actually email or talk to me on the phone I get really excited!!

You know me and you knew Spook-even if it was just over the internet, lol. She was special and no one will ever replace her. But I hope, I can give one (or more) of these puppies as good of a home as I gave her.

 

[thebritt]

WOW...I'd almost be tempted to offer $$$ (maybe to pay back for any vet care given) to those people. If it doesn't happen, it sounds like you are the perfect home for millions of dogs out there! I just adopted a puppy from the street (box-o-puppies) that tested parvo-positive (AFTER I paid the $117 initial puppy visit @ the vet. Got lucky - the parvo only cost an additional $300).
Don't feel bad about being open to a new dog "so soon" after the passing of your good friend - she would want you to be happy...and I'm one of those nuts that believe our best friends never leave us.
Hope all goes well

 

[CoyoteMagic]

Thank you. My DH will tell you that Spook was my soul mate. Guess no one ever said your soul mate can't be a dog, lol.

I've tried to spend my life making an impression on kids lives. My neices, nephews and Godchildren will tell you I've done so with them. I don't know about the others I've come across. I've worked in a wilderness camp with juvenile offenders and I spent nearly 10years in a High School with them too. Juvenile offenders?! I've had 6 featured on America's Most Wanted in the last 4 years!!! The year before I got sick with Breast Cancer I began questioning why I kept doing it.

I had one student that had been coming and going from the "Alternative" program since he was in the 6th grade. He was a relatively good kid. His mouth would get him into trouble. Very smart. I had a dream one night that he became one of those TV preachers, lol. He could boost people up like that, lol Friday evening he left from Night School with the rest of them laughing and ready for the weekend. Before 12am clicked off the clock, he was dead. Laying in the middle of McDonald's parking lot because someone didn't want to listen to him mouth and shot him in the head. I've stopped going to all the funerals.

After this battle for the last 2 years, I've decided I don't want or need all the drama in my life. I'm on disability so that helps that I don't have to be in the middle of it everyday. But I still want to reach out. I make quilts of the kids in the mountain. Walker bags for the Sr. Center. Kennel pad for the local rescue.

For me, right now, these puppies are how I'm choosing to reach out. Spook touch many lives.Not just the doctors and nurses we met along the way. But the silly Doggle wearing, life jacket wearing, kaykaying dog. The goofy pooch who could catch a frisbee on the fly no matter how hard you threw it. The one that would argue with staff memebers after the students were gone about whether or not she deserved a "goody" The one that would walk up to the older frail lady with a cane and stand there unmoving until petted because that persons energy was in need of just that thing at that time. The little kids kicking soccerballs into the net with no goalie until Spook arrived. She'd have those kids laughing and not wanting us to leave.

If I can make someone smile, someone laugh, or someone choose to adopt from a rescue just because they had the chance to meet a special dog that just happens to walk beside me, I think I've done a pretty good job.

 

[CoyoteMagic]

I just got an email


Thank you for letting me know about the fencing you have found. Sounds nice.

I have been speaking with the Ohio director, and I am concerned about our distance. We are unable to meet face to face, which is not going to make me feel okay with sending a special needs puppy.

A puppy will make its way to your area, and probably a hearing puppy which would be more suited to being trained as a service dog.

I'm sorry I am unable to send a deaf puppy to you. Please give your local rescue(s) a chance to help you find your new female pup.[/i]

I don't understand. I have looked at shelters and rescues all over. All over NC. All over the US. I have impecible references! But yet, I can't get a puppy. I have even considered a dog that I don't want just to make someone happy(not Lurchie) that I adopt from a local rescue. They even posted pictures of dogs available for rescue on Facebook after I sent them an email asking them to be one of my references. I still haven't heard back from them personally.

Anger is bubbling over. I'm about to say a few things to this person that aren't going to be pleasant.

 

[danischi24]

Go to your local kill shelter & I'm sure they will have a dog for you to save.

 

[verthandi]

Possibly there is a reason, a plan or a purpose that is not clear to you yet? I am so sorry for your frustration, but somehow I think it is going to work out as it should. I have a feeling that you would give all your love to any critter came into your life next. Maybe the delay is for the perfect one to find its way to you instead. And I am not thinking necessarily physically perfect, but the right match for you. Hold on, miracles at work, I do believe.

 

[TeamChaos]

All my love to you, I know what it means to have a four legged soul mate and how much it hurts when you have the hole left in their wake.

After my Max died, everyone was in a panic to put a puppy in my arms because, I assume, my grief made them uncomfortable and they were worried about me. The pups were nice, they were cute and smart and they simply weren't meant to be my dog. My Max had found me in the middle of a hurricane... a six week old puppy floating by in a trash can lid- I stopped my car and he jumped right in and gave me a look that said "what took you so long?". Months went by. People called me because they needed a foster home for some dog or another, I'd say fine because I knew it wouldn't be hard to say goodbye to any dog that wasn't my Max and we're good dog owners and can build a solid foundation for a dog in need of training. Nothing came of all of the "dogs in need" that I had agreed to take... one nite I was browsing pet finder (looking for a companion for our horse, not dog shopping) and I saw a dog listed in the random 'nearby animals' and he caught my eye. I read his stats and left it at that. But I thought of him again and again the next day. I sent an application in and was told I was tenth in the list for him. No big deal, I thought, I'll find one who needs me. A few weeks went by and I got a call, did I want to come and meet him? It turns out he was too big for the first people, too strong for others to manage, too young for another family to take. Jack, the suspected great dane/shepard/border collie mix has been with us on the farm for over two years now. The dog everyone wanted but nobody kept came home with me. He's the opposite of my Max- Jack is clumbsy and clueless. He doesn't speak dog and he gets too excited about everything, he is an annoying little brother to our other border collie and we all love him dearly. We needed each other, I can see that now.

Animal rescues can sometimes get so focused on the good they want to do that they rule out the opportunity to actually do it. It's too bad that out of state rescues can't network to have an in-state rescue representative meet you and check out the environment and vouch for you. It is maddening and heart breaking, I agree. I also have faith that Spook has a plan for you and will have a paw in who gets to share her humans.

 

[CoyoteMagic]

Thank you both very much. I'm angry, frustrated but most of all I am empty.

I love my husband dearly, but he will even tell you that what Spook and I had he could only wish for. It made me feel bad when he first told me this, but he went on to say that witnessing our love and deepest commitment to each other allowed him to grow more emotionally and spiritually.

You could drop me in the deepest darkest jungle. As long as I had Spook by my side, I knew I could over come anything. I had confidence. I had determination. I was whole.

Now, I'm afraid to venture much further than the front door. Unsure of my next move. And as I said, completely and utterly empty. Where I felt warm and peaceful there is a deep bottomless pit of nothingness. I tell you true, if I was battling cancer now, I wouldn't make it. Why bother. Every morning I fight to open my eye to face a new day without that pure love that was in my life. Don't get me wrong, I know people love me, but that is not the same.

Oh and don't tell me I'm depressed and I need to see a doc. Been on antidepressents for years. Been on 4 different new ones since January and other than knock me out completely or cause me to sit in a chair and just drool, they do nothing and I've tossed them all.

 

[WriterofWords]

ok, me being me,, I'm not going to give you the "There is a plan for you" speech,, THOSE PEOPLE ARE IGNORANT JERKS! They are denying both a deserving puppy and a deserving human because they are ignorant jerks! How dare they send you what looks like a typical "insert name" here form,, do they think they are gods or something? How do they know what is best for anyone, what holier than though idiots, I'd love to meet with them and tell them off in person.