krturpie I dont mind that youve done some researching up on me.
I wouldnt have made those threads if I didnt mind people seeing them. And yes weve had some really crappie luck for the last year. I have always wondered why it was that I have a soap opera life but cant have all the money that goes along with it. I am guessing you have also figured out why you arent seeing any posts about "my side of the family". And to be totally honest they dont even have a clue that any of this is going on. I have literally cut them out of our lives, and believe that things would be 100x worse if they were any where around.
Today has been kind of slow, everybody left for the day leaving me here with Davy. They had to go back home and do some chores, and get fresh clothes. I had to have them swing by and give our nieghbor a check, so that she could go and buy the chickens more feed.
The doctor came in this morning and told me that they werent going to be able to tell the extent of the damage from the stroke until he is strong enough to come off the ventilator.They keep him totally drugged now after the other day when he ripped the restraints if half. But the doctor provided me with a little relief to all of this.........His heart looks prefectly normal. So we dont have to worry that we were dealing with the same problems his Aunt died from. That little piece of information did a lot to lift my spirits and make me breathe a bit easier.His lungs are in rotten same though.The bottom right lung is collasped, and he isnt pulling his own wieght on the ventilator. Instead its doing majority of the work for him. This does have me worried, because I do fear that he wont sart recovering soon, and he will be given up on, and counted for dead by the doctors. I keep trying to get him to take in a breath instead of the machine just pumping air into him. He is pretty much totally unresponsicde to everyone. I went and untied the one arm that he cant move anymore any way. It is a limp noodle and I am sure he wont be using it very soon. The nurse told me that she thought it would be alright. So now its a little easier to hold his hand. I have really been hurting today. I have a bone disease and this has done a number on me. Especially since this room is so small I have to twist to face him, and hold his had. Now his hand can reach out a little more making that easy.
I am finding now that i am fighting not to loose my patients though. When the docotr came in and told me about all of this, he also told me he would be out for three days and gave me the on call doctors name. They wont be doing much more until he gets back unless Davy dramatically changes one way or the other. And this is hard because I want to start seeing some results now, not three days from now. And its also hard because I am not to trusting of doctors right now, as you all probably know. I dont want to have to deal with a whole new doctor that will need to learn the ropes and figure out whats going on before he might be worth anything. Hopefully I can get lucky twice. Anyway you all its got to be about 5:00 am here and I know i am beggining not to make much sense. I am having problems keeping one train of thought so I think I better get up and move around to wake up a little. Posting updates during the night helps me stay awake but only to a certian extint. After that I need to work a little harder. I promise I will continue to give you all more updates as they come. Talk to you later, and good night/good morning.