- Jun 28, 2011
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I was just wondering, why do people treat me funny when I say I suffer from a phobia? I either get funny looks like I said I'm mentally unbalanced or something or I hear "Oh, I suffer from one too, I'm so scared of..."
Phobias, real phobias is no joke! Mine doesn't seem to have a name, I'm absolutely scared to death of burning. Seeing someone burn on TV triggers panic attacks. I sometimes black out. I'll come to my senses standing in a room on the other side of the house with no recollection of walking there, with concerned and freaked out relatives/friends staring at me, wondering what to do. Otherwise I get nausea, I feel dizzy, like I want to faint... Then a few days later I get nightmares. I get them quite often, actually. I'll wake up in the middle of the night and try not to get back to sleep, scared I'm going to continue dreaming. I feel crap in the morning, wondering what to do. Stop watching TV? Then I'll page through a magazine... Someone tells me a story, "Such and such had a house fire..." I want to scream at them "Stop! I don't want to know!" I walk in a supermarket/mall/anywhere I bump into scarred people. I draw them like a magnet. How many are there out there???
And these people who make a point of telling me all about this guy who doused himself in gasoline... They enjoy upsetting me! I can't stand the smell of petrol. I'm scared of using gas. You wouldn't get me near a big fire...
And people just don't get it. They think I'm weird. I'm not. I just have this irrational fear of something. I can't control it. I can't make it go away.
I'm NOT mentally unstable.
I just need people to understand.
If there are anyone else who has a phobia let me know, I feel so alone in this.
Phobias, real phobias is no joke! Mine doesn't seem to have a name, I'm absolutely scared to death of burning. Seeing someone burn on TV triggers panic attacks. I sometimes black out. I'll come to my senses standing in a room on the other side of the house with no recollection of walking there, with concerned and freaked out relatives/friends staring at me, wondering what to do. Otherwise I get nausea, I feel dizzy, like I want to faint... Then a few days later I get nightmares. I get them quite often, actually. I'll wake up in the middle of the night and try not to get back to sleep, scared I'm going to continue dreaming. I feel crap in the morning, wondering what to do. Stop watching TV? Then I'll page through a magazine... Someone tells me a story, "Such and such had a house fire..." I want to scream at them "Stop! I don't want to know!" I walk in a supermarket/mall/anywhere I bump into scarred people. I draw them like a magnet. How many are there out there???
And these people who make a point of telling me all about this guy who doused himself in gasoline... They enjoy upsetting me! I can't stand the smell of petrol. I'm scared of using gas. You wouldn't get me near a big fire...
And people just don't get it. They think I'm weird. I'm not. I just have this irrational fear of something. I can't control it. I can't make it go away.
I'm NOT mentally unstable.
I just need people to understand.
If there are anyone else who has a phobia let me know, I feel so alone in this.