I'll put this in a nutshell. I've always been skittish about dating and such and never dating until I was out of HighSchool. Even then I was still iffy about it. One of my friend who I had known my 4 years of HS asked me out so I said yes simply. We dated for exactly one month before he dumped me and less than a month later he was with another girl because he liked her more then me. I'm siply cried my eyes out because I really did like him, but I guess he lied to me by saying he's liked me for over 3 years. Around after Valentines Day she ended up cheating on his and was all depressed. We started talking again and he said he'd never date anyone except me and wouldn't ever do that to me again. I took his word for it giving him another chance... Stupid me? Was going good and everything for a few months. Went and spent time at the movies, the carnivel, and just hanging out at friends places with him. He had a night job from 4pm to 12 am at night and I had my little 8 week job as a camp counsler at a nearby park. He txts me saying he doesn't think we should be together anymore because I'm not spending enough time with him and asks if we could just be friends. There really is no time since he's racing on the weekend and hanging out with his "Buds" at the racetrack. I can't go because I don't have a car and no one would even pick me up that was going. Of course I cry my eyes out again and I've already had a bad week since I lost my best bird Coco. I still love him though but he doesn't feel the same. A week after that I get a txt from him but it was from a friend that I knew at school. She asked me how I was doing and that she was using his phone while he was racing. We chat somewhat and she asks me if we were dating and I said used to. She just pretty much blurts out over text "Oh ok because we are dating now." I can't believe it? Same thing as !@#$ing last time. I just feel used again for a second time. I was there for him when his abusive exgf smacked the shet of paper out of him. When his last one dumped him on Valentines day and I even put up with the first time he dumped me and basically cheated on me. This girl that I have no clue how long they had been dating was one of my close friend in HS. I was there the night that her FATHER shot and killed her little sister and then turned the gun on himself. No one else was there but I was at 12 o clock at night letting her cry on my shoulder. I was there at her sisters showing and burial. I was there for her through her pregnacy and gave her support (CPS later took the child no clue why....) I can't believe both of them would backstab me like this. I was never mean to them in anyway. I was to support my what I thought was friends... 4th of July I mainly sat in my room and did nothing. Just stared up at the ceiling or wall... I still have feelings for him but he just through me out like a piece of trash AGAIN... Sorry for the long rant.. I'm just done with dating and all that lovey dovey crap. It just isn't for me. Should of trusted my gut when I said yes the first time he asked me.