I feel like a five year old whining, but sometimes I just need to talk about what's bothering me. It's the best therapy.
I feel like I've had such an awful week. My weekend was awesome, but Monday I wake up and my day begins with the whole police citation ordeal. I got that all figured out and my night was ok. The next day (yesterday) I wake up and my mom had called about a late bill payment to XM radio. Apparently although I entered my info and paid the bill last month, XM's website messed up and nothing went through. My mom was giving me a hard time thinking I never paid it and I hung up the phone in a huff...feeling terrible about it later. I called the bank, spent my whole afternoon on the phone with the stupid company, and finally paid the whole bill after they told me I wasn't being charged any late fees.
Last night my friends and I went to the mall and I had a wonderful time. However, my friends found out I have a crush on this one boy (I know, I know...I feel like a kid!) and the one girl who is friends with him goes and tells him everything!! So now I feel like a fool and apparently she told him I wanted to have some kind of relationship with him. He told her he's not ready for that right now. However, that's not what I wanted at all! I just had a crush on him and I wanted to be friends...that was all for now, but I feel like a total idiot. I know I was probably acting flirty, like girls do, but all along he knew I had a crush on him! I have a really good time with him and I really want to be friends, but I feel so embarrassed. I feel like I need to tell him the truth, but I'm not sure if that's appropriate. I don't know if I should just let it all go and see how things turn out. The whole group of us were hanging out tonight and I couldn't even look him or the other girl in the eye. I know he was expecting me to be my normal funny self and I just couldn't, so I feel as if I'm punishing him for something that's not his fault at all! I was also fuming because this girl lied to me and said she wasn't going to tell him. I didn't want anyone to know in the first place, but you know how gossip spreads...
Now I also find out that a teacher I've looked up to for awhile may be having relations with a former student. I have no idea if this is really true or not, but it just puts the icing on the cake of things I have to think about! It is also very possible that he was fooling around with this girl while he was teaching her!! That is just not right IMO at all!
Everything just feels like it's building up. I know I'll look back on all of this and laugh, but I feel so stressed out. I just guess it's because this week has been a stressful one as far as school work goes and I know the clouds will part and everything will work out. I just need to hear some comforting words right now. :-(
I feel like I've had such an awful week. My weekend was awesome, but Monday I wake up and my day begins with the whole police citation ordeal. I got that all figured out and my night was ok. The next day (yesterday) I wake up and my mom had called about a late bill payment to XM radio. Apparently although I entered my info and paid the bill last month, XM's website messed up and nothing went through. My mom was giving me a hard time thinking I never paid it and I hung up the phone in a huff...feeling terrible about it later. I called the bank, spent my whole afternoon on the phone with the stupid company, and finally paid the whole bill after they told me I wasn't being charged any late fees.
Last night my friends and I went to the mall and I had a wonderful time. However, my friends found out I have a crush on this one boy (I know, I know...I feel like a kid!) and the one girl who is friends with him goes and tells him everything!! So now I feel like a fool and apparently she told him I wanted to have some kind of relationship with him. He told her he's not ready for that right now. However, that's not what I wanted at all! I just had a crush on him and I wanted to be friends...that was all for now, but I feel like a total idiot. I know I was probably acting flirty, like girls do, but all along he knew I had a crush on him! I have a really good time with him and I really want to be friends, but I feel so embarrassed. I feel like I need to tell him the truth, but I'm not sure if that's appropriate. I don't know if I should just let it all go and see how things turn out. The whole group of us were hanging out tonight and I couldn't even look him or the other girl in the eye. I know he was expecting me to be my normal funny self and I just couldn't, so I feel as if I'm punishing him for something that's not his fault at all! I was also fuming because this girl lied to me and said she wasn't going to tell him. I didn't want anyone to know in the first place, but you know how gossip spreads...
Now I also find out that a teacher I've looked up to for awhile may be having relations with a former student. I have no idea if this is really true or not, but it just puts the icing on the cake of things I have to think about! It is also very possible that he was fooling around with this girl while he was teaching her!! That is just not right IMO at all!
Everything just feels like it's building up. I know I'll look back on all of this and laugh, but I feel so stressed out. I just guess it's because this week has been a stressful one as far as school work goes and I know the clouds will part and everything will work out. I just need to hear some comforting words right now. :-(
