i'm right there with you Joyce. I hate that feeling, like your head is just barely above water amd you have to struggle to keep it there. I completely understand! Ii think one thing I am in ther process of learning is that I can't keep hiding from it and ths that continuing to do what we have always done isnt going to work. I hatefacing the news we have made. it's embarrassing! But if I don't, it won't get better. So we are struggling along, one day at a time. W make little mistakes, regroup, then trudge forward a bit more...and hopefully it helps to knew yoy aren't in it alone!