Congrats for getting it done the first time! It's hard, but it's a lot to learn. Many folks have gone generations without learning how to make meat from an animal.
It's OK to feel sadness too at the worry of a less than perfect job of a killing. I am a deer hunter, and believe you me, on the rare occasion I make a poor shot on a deer and know it's suffering, you don't want to be near me. I'm moody, upset, bitter, angry, and sad - for days and weeks. My poor husband knows better than to even come near me or talk to me. The main thing though is that I go right back out. If I just made a bad shot, I get out and do some practice shooting. If circumstances just misaligned - a branch in the way, the deer moved right when I was shooting, whatever, I analyze what happened and fix what I can to prevent it. You've done that already - reviewed that the first cut wasn't deep enough. You learned that it's a good idea to get the scald water up to temp before starting anything.You learned a lot, and you did get the job done!
I'm not sure if you've seen it, but I have a link in my signature that goes through how I process chickens. I do all of the cutting work from killing to final cuts with a scalpel (ordered from Havels). It might have some additional tips for the next round for you - I know you can do it!
It's OK to feel sadness too at the worry of a less than perfect job of a killing. I am a deer hunter, and believe you me, on the rare occasion I make a poor shot on a deer and know it's suffering, you don't want to be near me. I'm moody, upset, bitter, angry, and sad - for days and weeks. My poor husband knows better than to even come near me or talk to me. The main thing though is that I go right back out. If I just made a bad shot, I get out and do some practice shooting. If circumstances just misaligned - a branch in the way, the deer moved right when I was shooting, whatever, I analyze what happened and fix what I can to prevent it. You've done that already - reviewed that the first cut wasn't deep enough. You learned that it's a good idea to get the scald water up to temp before starting anything.You learned a lot, and you did get the job done!
I'm not sure if you've seen it, but I have a link in my signature that goes through how I process chickens. I do all of the cutting work from killing to final cuts with a scalpel (ordered from Havels). It might have some additional tips for the next round for you - I know you can do it!
Just have to do the BEST you can do and it will get easier, (I promise). You will never take it lightly, but it will get better and quicker
