My leukemia's back.

[FridayYet]

We also had a great night for watching fireworks. Hope everyone had a safe and happy day!


so, you all may be right about the back to work too soon. I wound up in the ED yesterday, just not feeling right. Weak, nauseated, heart racing, fatigued. Everything on the workup was fine, but I just felt crappy. Doing better today, but it's making me think maybe this work thing isn't worth it at this point. I'm going to go in tomorrow and meet with the bosses and see what they're thinking, and say I can either have a guarantee of 3 days a week or I'll basically quit. According to Disability, I can earn up to $800 a month and not have it effect my benefits. That would be about 3 days a month, hardly worth it. I guess I could just fill in for vacations, sick days, etc. We'll see. Honey read my review and he doesn't think it's as bad as I did, but he does see a specific co-worker's fingerprints all over the comments. I knew I'd never be bestest bestie best friends with her, but I thought we had a decent working relationship. And at this point, I'm just tired of stressing about it. Spending the summer at home tending my garden and chickens and getting to know my kids again is very appealing.

We had a really nice 4th, I think it's been years since my dad has watched any fireworks, so it was really fun watching him as well. We lit off our own on 7/3 when DD2 was here, then could see the ones at Balloon Fiesta Park from our house last night. He's realizing that the bypass, followed by the lymphoma and chemo, followed by a colon resection for another cancer has left him a different person, endurance -wise. A hard thing to accept for a man who has worked so hard all his life.

Hope it works out whatever you decide, and tending to the gardens and chickens IS quite appealing!

Glad you are doing better today.

 

[LittleLakePhil]

Hi guys......Racheal take care of yourself.....life happens.

 

[lazy gardener]

Phil, how are you????

Rachel, being at home sounds like a wonderful thing.

 

[Outpost JWB]

Prayers for you Rachel.

I almost called the squad for DH this weekend. He was possibly awake for 4 hours out of 2 whole days. He is holding water even on water pills. His weight has skyrocketed to over 350lbs. He can't breathe. Has sleep apnea. He was so bad that Saturday morning I made breakfast, coffee, woke him up 9ish. He was sitting straight up in his chair one second, eating, drinking but acting lethargic. Then all the sudden his head drops and he spills coffee all over himself which quickly woke him up. I thought he was having conjunctive heart failure. Very worrisome weekend. But he felt better yesterday and he said today was a better day.

 

[LittleLakePhil]

Phil, how are you????

Rachel, being at home sounds like a wonderful thing.

I'm okay LG.....breathing okay today....but I think what ever it is that is bothering me is in my house. I seem okay working in the yard....mostly bad when inside....but today is good.
I have to be in the drs office tomorrow so i will make an appointment to discuss my reactive airways.

Prayers for you Rachel.

I almost called the squad for DH this weekend. He was possibly awake for 4 hours out of 2 whole days. He is holding water even on water pills. His weight has skyrocketed to over 350lbs. He can't breathe. Has sleep apnea. He was so bad that Saturday morning I made breakfast, coffee, woke him up 9ish. He was sitting straight up in his chair one second, eating, drinking but acting lethargic. Then all the sudden his head drops and he spills coffee all over himself which quickly woke him up. I thought he was having conjunctive heart failure. Very worrisome weekend. But he felt better yesterday and he said today was a better day.

That doesn't sound good.....

 

[lazy gardener]

Prayers for you Rachel.

I almost called the squad for DH this weekend. He was possibly awake for 4 hours out of 2 whole days. He is holding water even on water pills. His weight has skyrocketed to over 350lbs. He can't breathe. Has sleep apnea. He was so bad that Saturday morning I made breakfast, coffee, woke him up 9ish. He was sitting straight up in his chair one second, eating, drinking but acting lethargic. Then all the sudden his head drops and he spills coffee all over himself which quickly woke him up. I thought he was having conjunctive heart failure. Very worrisome weekend. But he felt better yesterday and he said today was a better day.

Prayer for you and hubby. Can you get him to the dr? Even though he is better today, he may need some med adjustment.

Phil, glad you're doing better, and also glad you have an appointment scheduled.

 

[FridayYet]

Prayers for you Rachel.

I almost called the squad for DH this weekend. He was possibly awake for 4 hours out of 2 whole days. He is holding water even on water pills. His weight has skyrocketed to over 350lbs. He can't breathe. Has sleep apnea. He was so bad that Saturday morning I made breakfast, coffee, woke him up 9ish. He was sitting straight up in his chair one second, eating, drinking but acting lethargic. Then all the sudden his head drops and he spills coffee all over himself which quickly woke him up. I thought he was having conjunctive heart failure. Very worrisome weekend. But he felt better yesterday and he said today was a better day.

Gaining water weight that rapidly would make me concerned, too. And like LG said, a visit to the doctor would probably be a good idea. Hope DH feels better soon.

 

[sourland]

Prayer for you and hubby. Can you get him to the dr? Even though he is better today, he may need some med adjustment.

Phil, glad you're doing better, and also glad you have an appointment scheduled.

Gaining water weight that rapidly would make me concerned, too. And like LG said, a visit to the doctor would probably be a good idea. Hope DH feels better soon.

The ladies have my vote.

 

[donrae]

Outpost, at least get on the phone and get some med adjustments made. He is in some form of CHF from what you're saying and needs an increase in meds. Do you all have the green/yellow/red zones for CHF? If not, discuss this with your doctor, after this current issue is taken care of. All that fluid is a huge stress on his heart, lungs and kidneys and he doesn't need that.

Phil, hope they get you cleared up. I wonder sometimes about what may be floating around this old trailer I'm breathing in also....

 

[Blooie]

We also had a great night for watching fireworks. Hope everyone had a safe and happy day!


so, you all may be right about the back to work too soon. I wound up in the ED yesterday, just not feeling right. Weak, nauseated, heart racing, fatigued. Everything on the workup was fine, but I just felt crappy. Doing better today, but it's making me think maybe this work thing isn't worth it at this point. I'm going to go in tomorrow and meet with the bosses and see what they're thinking, and say I can either have a guarantee of 3 days a week or I'll basically quit. According to Disability, I can earn up to $800 a month and not have it effect my benefits. That would be about 3 days a month, hardly worth it. I guess I could just fill in for vacations, sick days, etc. We'll see. Honey read my review and he doesn't think it's as bad as I did, but he does see a specific co-worker's fingerprints all over the comments. I knew I'd never be bestest bestie best friends with her, but I thought we had a decent working relationship. And at this point, I'm just tired of stressing about it. Spending the summer at home tending my garden and chickens and getting to know my kids again is very appealing.

My gut tells me that after all you've been through trying to save your life, spending the rest of it in misery and second-guesses ain't what you had in mind. I can't make any comments on the finances - not my place - but seems to me that if a dream is meant to be the Good Lord will see to it that it happens, and He'll provide it when He sees that you are ready.