Need Prayer !! UPDATE #2

[chickabator]

I had a dr. appt. yesterday and to make long story short my dr. thinks I have had a mild heart attack. Wants me to go to cardiologist waiting for them to set up appt. well just found out I am not going to get to see him (insurance problems) so I have to set here and worry myself to death because of lack of insurance I could possibly have a massive heart attack and die. so if you would please pray that God would do a miracle here for me. I am trying not to worry and get myself all worked up trying to keep the stress down but all this is just too much. I have enough going on and now this, sometimes I wish I would just hurry up and die and get it over with. I am so tired of being sick all the time.its just too much. DH is sick he has been for along time now. stressing over how to pay this or that how am i going to do this or that. I worry about my family first that is the main thing to me is my family. It is just too much to deal with and I cant get sick I have them to take care of at least that is the way it seems like I am suppose to be super woman or something, well guess what, Im not, and my body is failing faster than what I thought it would.boy when you hit forty everything sure goes downhill from there.

 

[agnes_day]

poor thing, prayers sent!

 

[chickabator]

all I have been able to do is cry all day and I dont want to cry and feel sorry for myself, I have never been one to do that. I just cant quit crying no matter how hard I try too i am setting here right now with tears pouring down my face, I went out to water the chickens and tears pouring and I cant quit. To be honest I am scaird and I dont understand why

 

[CheepSunglasses]

Poor you (big hug). This level of stress is probably not helping you, either. Can I suggest something? One thing that will help to make you feel better is just moving around. Exercise produces endorphins. Can you just get up and go outside, take a big breath of fresh air and go visit your chickens? They always cheer me up, no matter what else is going on. There isn't much you can do to change the situation, but there are some things you can do to change the way you feel about it.

 

[chickabator]

my dr. doesn't want me moving around too much right now. cause that is what brought on the chest pains, until they find out what is going on. besides to be honest I feel too week to do anything, all I want to do is sleep I just feel so tired. I have been pushing myself for the past few days. plus 1 1/2 to 2 hrs of sleep a night aint good for anyone. Im afraid to go to sleep every since that happend the night before last I am afraid the pains will start again and I will die. I am being honest here. see the chest pains woke me up out of my sleep and I couldnt catch my breath could call out for dh or anyone just laid there and cried and prayed. finally it eased up and then it was time for dh to get up for work. I couldnt go back to sleep. had trouble last night sleeping finally went to sleep then the alarm clock went off and dh was up. he let me lay in bed this morning. I get so short of breath if I move around alot that I have to set down. Something is not right in there and I know it I can feel it and there is nothing I can do about it. I am on asprin nitro blood pressure meds water pills insulin cholesterol meds all kinds of things .

 

[sfw2]

If you ever get pains like that call 911 and GO TO THE ER! I'm not sure what your insurance issue is - whether it be lack of coverage or they won't pay for a specialist - but you HAVE to get emergency care when this happens.

That said, I'm praying that what happened the other night was a one-time occurence, and you feel better, soon.

 

[Amyable]

Praying this will be resolved quickly and you will be back to your old self soon!

 

[retiredwithchicks]

A hospital cannot refuse to treat you, money or no money. Pain again, call 911. As long as you pay them a $1 a month on the bill that is making an effort. What good is anything else if you are dead and can't take care of people or bills. TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF. I know those symptoms, I had them also and a stint to stop any more. Go get medical help, even if at the health office or clinic or whatever.

 

[chickabator]

thats what my dr. said yesterday. She said that if I couldnt get the heart cath done then she would make sure it got done one way or the other. I just wish I didnt feel so weak and tired and short of breath all the time.

 

[chickabator]

I have to be there monday at 9:45 for heart cath. dr. office just called about 30 min. ago. They said it was urgent for me to go that she is 99% sure that I did have a heart attack, and if I could not make the appointment to call her and she is putting me in the hospital asap. still been having twinges and shortness of breath but the nitro pills ease it up and they told me that if I take 3 with in 15 min. to get straight to ER dont wait. the water pills are helping get rid of some of the excess fluid that have my feet and legs swollen. but they are still huge, they also think the kidney disease is getting worse. So wont know anything else till monday.