I had a dr. appt. yesterday and to make long story short my dr. thinks I have had a mild heart attack. Wants me to go to cardiologist waiting for them to set up appt. well just found out I am not going to get to see him (insurance problems) so I have to set here and worry myself to death because of lack of insurance I could possibly have a massive heart attack and die. so if you would please pray that God would do a miracle here for me. I am trying not to worry and get myself all worked up trying to keep the stress down but all this is just too much. I have enough going on and now this, sometimes I wish I would just hurry up and die and get it over with. I am so tired of being sick all the time.its just too much. DH is sick he has been for along time now. stressing over how to pay this or that how am i going to do this or that. I worry about my family first that is the main thing to me is my family. It is just too much to deal with and I cant get sick I have them to take care of at least that is the way it seems like I am suppose to be super woman or something, well guess what, Im not, and my body is failing faster than what I thought it would.boy when you hit forty everything sure goes downhill from there.