I apologize in advance, but I just feel the need to gush about my Rad baby right now, and how much she has both saved and enriched my life the two years I have had the pleasure caring for her.
I got a rough diagnosis of lupus two years ago just after I turned 18, I was terrified and angry, and haven't been back to a doctor since. It's a terrible disease, and I just couldn't wrap my head around why my body goes through phases of intense joint pain and exhaustion, and I was barely considered an adult.. Now Radagast, she's a superhero. I haven't been able to provide for her to nearly the level she deserves, but she has been utterly forgiving in being tired around to the unfortunate situations I've been in, before where I am now. It's like she knows when I'm in a bad spot, when I really can't do any better for her, and she doesn't complain. Granted, she's all sass when I'm in a position to get back spoiling her again, but her ability to gauge when it's appropriate, it still astounds me.
Right now I'm smack dab in the middle of one of my "flare ups". I'm only twenty yet I can barely muster the energy to go up and down stairs, and getting up from a sitting position often requires assistance. So alot of day is spent lying around and reading, but not without my trusty sidekick. Mind you, Rad is not in any way cuddly. She is a free spirit who wants her way, all day. But if she comes into a room im in, and sees me struggling, she starts softly cooing, slowly walks to me, and starts kinda gently prodding at my shoulder, before snuggling down next to my head. My sweet little bird not only tolerates moving her everywhere, and in the past continuously being unable do give her the best care, but she takes care of me when I'm sick... This was an animal given to me as a gift, that I intended to kill and eat, yet she's worked her way into my heart and home, always there for me when I need her.. I wish I could tell her just how big that is <3