maplesky, I don't "know" you, but have read here and there on the forum about your health woes. I've gone through a lot of health issues also - different from yours, though - and the very hardest time for me was when my kids were young and I couldn't be the mom I wanted to be to them or take part in things with them.
So I'll be praying for you to be able to have fun with your kids, and hope you feel better very, very soon with good news from the docs.