I haven't read this entire thread, but your initial post resonates with me.
I LOVE my chickens. Chickens are LIFE. But we moved a year ago, and my current setup isn't nearly as nice as our old one. My chickens don't look as gorgeous as they used to in spite of my daily care, cleaning, etc. I just finished dealing with a rat infestation in the coop. My rooster hates me. I have one hen who can't shake bumblefoot. I have another who, despite all my intervention, can't grow feathers. And now I have one that will NOT stop being broody (I have tried everything suggested on BYC and then some).
Now I'm sitting here in my livingroom with the 3 babies I just bought in an attempt to break my hen who is brooding herself to death. Of course, she rejected them. Of course she did.
I feel defeated. What used to bring me joy is now just making me feel like a failure.
Like you, I'm considering selling my flock. I am not the chicken mama I once was. I would never blame anyone for deciding to stop keeping chickens if it isn't right for them. It'd be so much worse to keep them if they don't bring you joy anymore. It takes courage to make the change. I find it admirable to be honest about it.
I LOVE my chickens. Chickens are LIFE. But we moved a year ago, and my current setup isn't nearly as nice as our old one. My chickens don't look as gorgeous as they used to in spite of my daily care, cleaning, etc. I just finished dealing with a rat infestation in the coop. My rooster hates me. I have one hen who can't shake bumblefoot. I have another who, despite all my intervention, can't grow feathers. And now I have one that will NOT stop being broody (I have tried everything suggested on BYC and then some).
Now I'm sitting here in my livingroom with the 3 babies I just bought in an attempt to break my hen who is brooding herself to death. Of course, she rejected them. Of course she did.
I feel defeated. What used to bring me joy is now just making me feel like a failure.
Like you, I'm considering selling my flock. I am not the chicken mama I once was. I would never blame anyone for deciding to stop keeping chickens if it isn't right for them. It'd be so much worse to keep them if they don't bring you joy anymore. It takes courage to make the change. I find it admirable to be honest about it.