Knox, you are in the one, and possibly, only place where each and every one of us understands and has experienced first hand, what you're going through right now.
If it's any consolation at all, we've shared your pain far more times than any of us cares to count. Cyn is right. Be thankful that it was sudden. Having had a number of my precious girls go each way, suddenly and lingering, I can tell you, a sudden death is far preferable to a long and agonizing death, in which you are powerless to alter the outcome. On those occasions, if I had been able to bring myself to do the act, I would have ended their suffering.
Patsy was with you for just a short time, Knox, but in that time, she lived fully and happily. She had a wonderful home with a wonderful Chicken Dad, who loved her, cared for her, and made every day special for her. She has you to thank for that.
Don't ever be ashamed of the tears you shed. You're a part of this family that understands just how special these small feathered creatures are. And dang it! It hurts when they leave us. I cry like a baby, every time I loose one of my girls. [haven't lost one of my boys yet,
thank heavens
] I cry because I loved them. Where is the shame in that? Nonexistent in my book. So, please, cry for Patsy. It shows that you loved her!
You know what you need to do now Knox? You need to go out and get yourself 20 more little Del's and give them the same great home that you gave to Patsy.
I hear Kathy has a whole incubator full of them!