On the Brink of Spring
Part 1
“You must try, Yanái”
I stood rigid in the snow, tail between my legs, eyes wide. Of course I wanted dinner, but I did not want to leap headfirst into a snowbank to get it. I could hear the mouse scurrying around under the snow, and my mouth started salivating.
Siyúlne stood off to the left, rusty brown fur standing out against all the white, tail swaying side to side, pointed ear (he only had one) twitching expectantly. I knew he wanted the food too, but he was letting me have it. He would go hungry again so that I-
My eyes flew open. It was just another dream. Waking up like this had become all too common during these past months. Looking around, I knew I was in my den. All foxes have dens, but this was nothing special. There was just enough room for the two piles of moss that served as my bed and my reminder. A reminder that it had been all my fault.
I yawned, and watched the mist billow from my jaws. It was cold. Too cold. It had been too long since I had heard a stream or felt the grass or smelt a flower.
Standing stiffly, I stretched and looked outside. The snow lay in deep drifts as far as I could see, which was not very far because of the trees, stripped of their leaves and bare against the cold, hard sky.
I gingerly broke an icicle off the top of the den entrance with my sharp, white teeth and took it back to my moss, and began licking. It was better than no water, but like everything else, it was a part of winter. Part of something cold and lifeless and colorless. When would it end?
I decided I would not go hunting today. I had eaten last night. I was to pass the day staring at the sky, letting the sweet memories of past times fill me, and hopefully, no more dreams would come.