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N F C said:
What a nightmare! I hope today goes better for you :)




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Are you feeling better today Deb?
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Yep much... I battle depression big time... Clinically Depressed... Means long term.... Part of what aided me to gain so much weight. A way to hide from the world. I call it my onion layers... layers of physical separation from the world... aiding in my emotional separation from the world....

Each layer is somewhat painful to remove... Incresing my feeling of vunuralbility and decreasing my physical perception of strength. Been through this roller coaster before... But never have I lost so much in so little time.

Emotions can make you feel sick if you arent used to exposing them. At least for me. The best way I can express them is in written form. I stumble on actual communicaiton.

Going home is like going back to my Centere... Once back in that world I find my ground and the depression eases. I cant go though till I Stabilize my weight loss. Which likely will fit into my estimated time frame of one or two months after the new year.

deb
 
Hope going home will truly help you perchie. I benefited from a very good psychiatrist, and after a few attempts, the right medication. I totally trusted him and was able to tell him about the most painful incidents in my life. Did I lot of crying but, psychiatrists are used to it.
 
BTW I worried about anyone getting to see his notes. He showed me his notes. He would write down the date and it said "tearful." Nothing for anyone who wanted to sneak a peek. He had a fantastic memory.

He was like that for all his patients. I hope you'll have the benefit of such a wonderful professional.
 
perchie.girl said:
Yep much... I battle depression big time... Clinically Depressed... Means long term.... Part of what aided me to gain so much weight. A way to hide from the world. I call it my onion layers... layers of physical separation from the world... aiding in my emotional separation from the world....

Each layer is somewhat painful to remove... Incresing my feeling of vunuralbility and decreasing my physical perception of strength. Been through this roller coaster before... But never have I lost so much in so little time.

Emotions can make you feel sick if you arent used to exposing them. At least for me. The best way I can express them is in written form. I stumble on actual communicaiton.

Going home is like going back to my Centere... Once back in that world I find my ground and the depression eases. I cant go though till I Stabilize my weight loss. Which likely will fit into my estimated time frame of one or two months after the new year.

deb
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I hope your estimate is spot on perchie. I'm so happy for you and the great progress you're making :hugs
 
igorsMistress said:
I hope your estimate is spot on perchie. I'm so happy for you and the great progress you're making :hugs
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My main concern is falling. I fall well Learned when I rode horses... Its a body memory.. If I fall where I cant get hold of something like a chair I cant get back up. At this point I am barely able to stand up from a chair I have sat in for a couple of hours.

No cell service and no land line... So those life alert pendants wont work there. I need to work on my ability to get up off the floor just in case. I could do it when I was 378 LBs. but my center of gravity has changed and my balance is off.

Like Sour said... All sorts of things are changing.

deb
 

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