things went badly this time. Iw as going to process four birds. two got away from me, and two.... I cut their veins and they didn't die. they justs tared at me for almost five minutes. in desperation i tried breaking their necks and they still wouldn't die. i finally just cut their heads off because i couldn't stand them suffering.
Then one of them had strange growths on it's intestines, like little cysts, one was a weird yellow color and looked a bit like a skin tab does, and the organs filled up the entire cavity... they were just packed in there like they were swollen, so i am disposing of that bird. I feel bad, i feel like i'm waisting the meat but since i am taking care of my immune compromised mother I am afraid. Please tell me, did I do the right thing? now can I do better next time? I'm so upset I never want to do this again, and this is not my first time to process birds!
*is so guilt ridden*
Then one of them had strange growths on it's intestines, like little cysts, one was a weird yellow color and looked a bit like a skin tab does, and the organs filled up the entire cavity... they were just packed in there like they were swollen, so i am disposing of that bird. I feel bad, i feel like i'm waisting the meat but since i am taking care of my immune compromised mother I am afraid. Please tell me, did I do the right thing? now can I do better next time? I'm so upset I never want to do this again, and this is not my first time to process birds!
*is so guilt ridden*
