I'd like to curl up in bed and cry, but I'm about to leave for another shift, can't look awful-er when meeting a new client. I work in home health care, and with money being tight, I've taken on two to three shifts a day until further notice. Problem is, I still can't afford what I need. Like my car insurance, has, animal feed, winter preparations, and, well, dinner. I was working as a pizza delivery driver, but with that you may as well be being paid to afford to drive for the job and that's all, so it's just the one job with home health care now. My husband's job doesn't help right now either. My husband leaves for boot camp right after New Years, which leaves me alone with our two year old and my mom who has (aggressive) dementia. I know it's just a few months, but I'm already dreading it. If I didn't have a daughter and animals, I'd stay with a friend for those months. Deep breaths, MamaDoodle, deep breaths. State insurance won't cover me, and now I have another medical bill to pay off since I just got home after getting a concussion. Thankfully they gave me something to help me relax, maybe I'll look less edgy. My plan at the moment is to sell/rehome all but my best horse, give my chickens to my neighbor's flock, and see if family will take any of the dogs. Not much for me to do about the cats, they're basically feral. I'll keep working till I snap or husband comes home, whichever comes first. And hopefully I'll be able to stress less that way. It's just so hard to see the future in a positive way right now, with everyone around me losing work and being put down by my mom every time I see her. Thanks for letting me vent!