I won't lie. It may be one of the hardest things I've ever done. However, I can't afford to buy meat of the quality that I want to be eating... that I think is necessary for my health and the morals that I want to be guiding my life by. In the past, if I bought meat from the supermarket, probably half the time it ended up being fed to the dog, since it just didn't smell fresh enough for me. Perhaps it's from being vegetarian for SO long, but I've lost the tolerance for the smell of slightly off meat that most people around me seem to think is palatable. Don't even get me started on the people who buy just-about-to-be-thrown-out sale meat. *GAG*
When it was time to kill the bird, I gave him a long hard look. Did I want to be responsible for this bird's death? I raised him from a day old, just like you said, and it wouldn't be hard to get attached like a pet. Did I want to go back to going to the store (albeit a more expensive store) to get my chicken? Would those chickens have any less of a death than this guy? I would be just as responsible for those deaths... and I can be sure that they didn't have the kind of death I wanted for him. My conscience says that it's more wrong to pay someone else to do something badly than it is for me to do it myself properly, even if it makes me sad to do it.
This week or next, I will be bringing my chickens to a farm so someone else can do it. I'm hoping they have a reasonably humane death and will be there when it happens, so if it isn't, I won't be hiring them again. I know I CAN do it, but I'm still too slow to do 18 in one day. Someday, I'll be better at it (and I'm hoping that going to the farm and helping will bring me to that place sooner!!!)
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