You are a brave wonderful person, and God has a plan for you, or you would not have survived such a horrific accident. The way you can describe it to such graphic detail tells us that you still are horrifically impacted by this, but talking about it will help. It will help those demons haunting your dreams go away. I think, and this is JMPO, but have you ever thought of contacting the local guidance counselor's at local high schools and telling the students your story? You have a gift for letting us see the horror of that night, and maybe you could make ONE kid think twice before getting into a car with drinkers or driving and drinking their selves. Bless your heart for sharing with us, you are in all of our thoughts and prayers for coming this far through a horrible incident. Good luck and God Bless.