Mary it's been three years! I saw him for the first time on Wednesday I recognized him from the back! My heart started beating out of my chest! Then I saw his face I was about to faint I hugged him so many times we only spoke for five minutes he didn't ask about my daughter at all I told him I loved him he said he loved me too and I told him you have no idea what this means to me he said trust me I know
, the thought of how broken he is killed me , I wished to see him but these past couple of days Iv been overthinking to the point that I felt like I was literally losing it I need to snap out of it and let him go but I can't stop thinking of him especially that I lost my job last week I have too much time on my hands and my daughters staying at her boyfriends for three weeks his parents are on. Vacation so I just sit here and think of everything and my heart breaks , believe it or not I hope I never see him again I can't handle it