I think part of my issue is I know once the “deed is done” I would have no problem dressing it. It’s just that one part in between that I just can’t bear to do. Sometimes Negan or Ditzy (extremely loud Cayuga hen you want her???I can understand that. Your boys were lucky indeed. I have a tender heart but I have a logical mind. Which can make me very indecisive because I often see both sides of the coin, so to speak. I grew up watching animal shows. The circle of life isn't always pretty and sometimes it's not fair. When we got chickens this yr I did so knowing that nature is all around me and some times life just happens. When we got ducks, I knew they were straight run. I warned my hubby. Repeatedly. I knew there would be a high chance of multiple males. We talked about it. He blew it off like, we'll deal with it if we have to. But I warned him. I had read that oftentimes what happens with straight run animals is that specifically requested orders are filled first and what is left over goes into the straight run pile. People have a higher request for females than males so more males end up in the straight run than females. Not only males... just a higher percentage. I was just hoping I would luck out. LOL I read a thread on here recently where someone was asking about if people view eggs or eating eggs differently since they started owning chickens (I'm paraphrasing). She said that for her, since owning chickens and they started laying, that she just can't hardly stomach eating eggs. Ya know, when I first got my girls I wondered how I would react. Sometimes that disconnect is needy. I wonder if that is why some people are vegetarians? It doesn't bother me at all. I thought it would gross me out. Even if I collect an egg that is still warm because it is that fresh. Even if I have to wash off an egg that got really dirty with poo (thankfully is rare). As for an actual bird, be it chicken or duck, will it bother me to cull? Absolutely. It already is. I wish I knew somebody that was a hunter or someone with experience that I can learn from or see it done. Someone that can help. I need to watch some videos I guess. I haven't been able to bring myself to do that yet.I really need to.

In a survival setting? Pffft off with all the loud chickens’ heads!
We are so extremely lucky that our ducks ended up being hens apparently! We just grabbed the two black ducklings and hoped for the best lol!