$150,000 What To Do

[HHandbasket]

For $150,000, I could buy the land/property I want (currently a foreclosure sale, 5 acres in the foothills with a 3-bedroom modular home for $32,000 full asking price), pay off all our debts, and get both of us new cars. That's a great start.

I would do it today if I had the money, since we just found out Friday that we are getting kicked out of our ghetto house (they're putting it up for sale).

 

[deerman]

Thanks All my dear BYC family, for so many good ideas........So I am going to cash the life insurance in , but still keep fighting and live as long as I can.....

I think the most i got from this post is to leave memories, for my family. The cash will help to travel with them and other loved ones. PICS PICS AND PICS.


Trust I need to check into, as i still will be leaving my home and 42 A of land, which 2 1/2A lots next to it sold for 75,000.


The BYC forum has help me so much.......i can leave some of my knownledge of birds that I have learned over my life.....plus lot of the long night sure would have been boring ,without my friend on here.

Will keep a eye on this thread........again THANKS TO ALL.....

I sure hope to be still posting here years from now, things can change, just because i cash my life insurance , yes it says life expected less than 12 months.........doesn't mean I am given up.....after all I'M a tough old bird........

 

[deerman]

Thanks to Maple , for this link, YES this is my sig . no matter what type of songs you like check this link....so deep and so true..even if you haven't got the news.........**LIVE LIKE YOU WERE DYING**

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XiOcW_YR1G8

The best video , the song and the bucket list. Check them out

 

[Mattemma]

Wishing you well.

One other thing that will cost nothing except a wee bit of your time is to write.Put down in writing your experiences and thoughts. I always ask my mom to do it for the grandkids,so they will have more than pics and memories in their mind. Ofcourse a video record is even better.
Hugs.

 

[bluesub]

One more thing for you to do, would be record memories you have of your children when they were little. This morning, I looked up and saw a little stuffed animal that my 8 year old used to sleep with when she was about 1 1/2. It is a blue bear, she couldn't say blue so she called it "Gluey". She doesn't remember, but I do. So try and record things like that so they can remember their childhood too...

 

[Chic-n-farmer]

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And I know you've talked about cancer...wasn't it? And I see your sig line, "Live like you were dying." Deerman.... I don't know what to say. I'm an emotional wreck right now as it is but this is making me really sad that you are having to contimplate....well, to live like you were dying.

It really hit me a few days ago when I was cleaning the coop and that song came on. I thought, you know, some people get so sick that they couldn't go Rocky Mountain climbing.... And other's just wouldn't have the finances to do things on what people call thier "bucket" list. I thought about my health with my heart and all and got sad. The song stirs up these emotions like...like REALLY living your life and being not just happy but full of joy. I want that. I want that peace of mind. I've been so stressed lately and I know my 2 little girls can sense it. I hate all of it. I hate the divorce. I hate the man who used and abused me. I hate that I let it happen. I hate that I didn't run away from him when all the bad started. I hate how my health is failing me now.

I used to be this spunky girl who was strong and could help my dad carry heavy things. I used to have the energy in me to play soccer and ride my mountain bike on horse trails. I in a sense am dying...part of my heart is no longer pumping, the part I had my heart attack has been damaged and is scarred. I hate the dr. who told me I was having a muscle cramp and sent me home when I was having my heart attack. I just want some peace. I just want to be done with the divorce. I don't want to be fighting for alimony or S.S.I. but I have no choice. Why do I have to fight for it? I'm tired of fighting. I just want to be in a new place then that I can afford since I can't stay here in my childhood home. And I don't want my kids to feel stress and burdened and sad anymore and I know they do. We had a moment tonight.... I'm just so sad. I'm tired.... My body aches... My mind is all over the place...

And I think....even admists my down times, my dark times....like now....I have to remember my faith. It's all I've got to hold on to. I don't have the money to go sky diving but I've got a great view of the sunset and the house I may be going to will have a veiw of the sunset too....it over looks corn feilds. That ain't bad. I might not have it in me to go Rocky Mountain climbing but there's a little forest perserve right around the bend and I bet I could walk some trails with my 2 little girls. I might not ever have the courage to ride a bull named Fu Man Chu but trying to train our new pup after I had to put my old girl down last April, has been just as challenging. And so I think...the road is hard...it's full of obstacles and some twists and curves in the road are scary but I know I'll get through them.

I've got to work on the love deeper, spoke sweeter, and giving forgiveness I've been denying part. I've been so hurt, I'm jaded. My girls...I love em so. The pain and the hurt and the stress isn't doing my health any good. And dang it all deerman....it's during the night time like this that I have a moment of quiet once my girls are asleep that I can get all goopy and sappy like this.

Dang it...even made me go to youtube and play the song...

It's a good song. It makes me quietely reflect and it makes me smile.

I'm gonna say it again deerman...you've been given some good ideas here....memories to make for and with your family...leaving some behind to help provide for them...but only you know what is in your heart. Maybe you have an idea but think you need an approval...an ok...by someone to say it and suggest it. I don't know. Just a thought. Maybe what you want to do you think may be considered selfish because perhaps it involves you and not your family? Again...just a thought. Maybe you want to rent a cabin in Alaska for a month out in the wilderness and be alone? I don't know...no one knows...what could be going through your head right now.

But I would be interested to hear the ideas that you, yourself, have been having since you obviously have given thought about cashing it in and having the rest left for your family needs. What IS it that deerman would like to do? What's on YOUR bucket list? Maybe there's just one thing you really want to do...maybe there's a few things you really want to do. Are you willing to share your last wishes here with us? Just know....it's your life....you decide ultimately how to live...your life. All we here at your friendly byc family forum can do is support you and pray for you and well, learn from you.

It's your life...you're story...you write the chapter.

You made me cry, Maple. I wish I could make what you and Deerman are facing go away. I hope you both realize the gifts you give to others. You make us stop and count our blessings, you make us see the silver linings. I pray for your peace and comfort from a God who
loves you. Thank you both for being so open and sharing.

 

[RoeDylanda]

Deerman, I'm still pretty new but I've always liked to see your opinion on things. I'm sorry you're on this road, but you're traveling it with grace and thoughtfulness, which is so inspiring. I'm in training right now to be a hospice volunteer and I feel confident, just from the little I've seen so far, that where you're headed is better than where we are now. God bless and good luck, love, and wonderful memories to you.

 

[chickened]

I didn't read all the posts but if the question is still asked I would go search my chickens ancestral roots and maybe vacation a while while there.

 

[maple]

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aw.

You called yourself a tough old bird...guess that means we won't be eatin ya on our desert island if worse came to worse.

Suppose we can go hunt down redhen though...she might be tender. nom nom nom

 

[wegotchickens]

If I had it, I would set up a college fund for any kids (could be a new house fund if they don't go to school).
And take everyone on a dream vacation.