I know exactly how you feel! My original plan was to socialize slowly, and let the only touch from me be a calm, easy one - no drama, no trauma. But we've had an epidemic of "pasty butt" here and now when they see me coming they run as far and as fast as they can! I posted on another thread that I swear one of them pointed to another one with his wing cheeping, "Pick her, pick her!" <sigh> Found out how to get ahead of the "pasty butt" with ACV and yogurt, but now I'm in an uphill battle to win their trust back.