Anxiety and Death **UPDATE** Post #12

My stepdad died at 34 of a heart attack.He was physically fit(soccer player),but they said his heart looked like a 70yo.

Have yourself checked out. I did all the heart check stuff when I was feling a bit off and had some symptoms.
 
I dont know if this is it but...

A couple days ago a girl that is really good friends with someone I know (Ive met her a few times) was shot and killed by her husband.

He had depression and PTSD from deploying a couple times. I met him a few times as well and always stayed on the other side of the room from him. Its like he had a darkness in him.. or a dark cloud over him.
But he shot and killed her and called it into police saying it was a suicide but then admitted he did it.

Its a shame. They had 3 young children. One of them was home when this happend
 
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That is terrible news. I hope the children will find a way to deal witht he situation somehow. And I hope that your 'feeling" and worry will disappear too. That would bug me as well.
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Sarah - At the risk of sounding a bit woo-woo, you may want to Google what is an empath (or start here http://healing.about.com/cs/empathic/a/uc_empathtraits.htm) and what is an intuitive (http://www.lyndahilburn.com/articles_psy.htm). Again, at the risk of sounding woo-woo to others, although I know myself and know I am not crazy or dreaming things up, I believe that one of these describes you. Maybe if you understand what is happening, you will be better able to deal with it. When I get a feeling about something, I try to unblock my mind and "go with" the feelings to see where they lead and if I can "feel" further information about what I am "feeling". I think you can/will understand what I mean and am trying to say. Good luck, take care, and don't be scared.
 
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I agree. I have been dealing with those thoughts exactly on and off for years. Its hard to deal with and hard to think logically about it yourself. If it is anxiety attacks what brought it on? Lack of sleep? Dieting? new stresses? I will be honest when the weather changes, or I don't eat right, I get over exhausted these types of thoughts run freely. It is nothing to spend most of the day in complete panic. When at its worst it feels like I am having a heart attack. 2 ekg's and a suggestion to go on anxiety meds later I know what I am dealing with, even if I can't always control it.

I am unable to take medications due to some funky reactions I have had. I take passion flower. It helps. I also take stress enzyme sleep aid so I sleep better. I have found I actually need at least 9 hours of sleep. When your a mom you tend to get so much less and it plays havoc with your mind and your body. I am not saying this is the problem but maybe it is. Just something to consider.
 
Ngt Angl you dont sound crazy. I know what they are and Ive thought maybe I am one but... why would I be one?
Does it not happen to everyone?
I havent seen this girl in probly 6 months. Dont know why I would have picked up on her
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My last big wave of fear was on Saturday around 10:30ish. I just felt like I was being stalked and someone was coming for me. (I even texted my sister and called my friend in panic
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Slowly it went away but I still pulled out a knife and kept it next to my bed anyways.
Ill admit we were out of town and I had to go back to the cabin all alone at this time (I felt really sick and didnt go eat with the family) so that probly added to the fear..
Since Saturday I have felt fine.
 
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I don't know all the in's and out's of it - I have just accepted these "feelings" that I get as a part of me and keep an open mind about it. I do believe in the metaphysical and the entire universe resonates with energy and vibrations because I occasionally pick up on very random things that make no sense to me personally. From what you are saying, your feelings are very much stronger than mine and while I try to "open" myself to the feeling, I seem to only be able to take it so far. When I did a fast Google to reply to your post, the first link that I found for the intuitive washttp://www.lyndahilburn.com/articles_psy.htm and while I only skimmed the article, it seemed a pretty good, concise explaination. To answer one of your questions, ".... Intuitive/psychic abilities are present in everyone. As with anything else -- intelligence, singing ability, athletic skills, etc. -- each person comes in with a certain amount of whatever it is, showing up somewhere along a continuum of possibility. And, each of those things can be increased through attention and practice. It's the same with intuitive/psychic abilities." The link above is good - let me know what you think.
 
Morbid anxiety and depression are more common than you may think. I think a trip to the doctors might put you on the right road to recovery. Bottling up these kinds of feelings is not good for you and will only lead to more severe anxiety and or depression. Good luck.
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I don't know all the in's and out's of it - I have just accepted these "feelings" that I get as a part of me and keep an open mind about it. I do believe in the metaphysical and the entire universe resonates with energy and vibrations because I occasionally pick up on very random things that make no sense to me personally. From what you are saying, your feelings are very much stronger than mine and while I try to "open" myself to the feeling, I seem to only be able to take it so far. When I did a fast Google to reply to your post, the first link that I found for the intuitive washttp://www.lyndahilburn.com/articles_psy.htm and while I only skimmed the article, it seemed a pretty good, concise explaination. To answer one of your questions, ".... Intuitive/psychic abilities are present in everyone. As with anything else -- intelligence, singing ability, athletic skills, etc. -- each person comes in with a certain amount of whatever it is, showing up somewhere along a continuum of possibility. And, each of those things can be increased through attention and practice. It's the same with intuitive/psychic abilities." The link above is good - let me know what you think.

•I am very aware of subtleties in my energetic/physical environment.
Usually I can walk into a room where it is silent and I can tell if someones mad and who they are mad at
•I can feel/sense other peoples' moods/energy.
I can walk into a room and "feel" the mood in there. It can be heavy, light, fuzzy, etc
•I'm very sensitive to physical sensations/pain.
Who likes a boo boo?
•I need a lot of alone time.
I like to have spirts of "hang out time" where Ill go see my friends weekends after weekends but after a while of that I will need to rest and stay at home for months on end.
•Caffeine, alcohol, etc., really affect me.
They can and the can not
•I'm bothered by strong smells/aromas.
Yes! They can make me sick...
(but Im not the type to tell the lady with stinky purfume to please step away)
•Loud noises upset me.
I love loud music but if something SPLATS in my house Im usually up out of my seat and raising cane for it to not happen again
•Music is a spiritual experience.
Some of the best times I have is alone in my room listening to really deep music or up dancing
•I startle easily.
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I try to be tough and expect things to happen but if you come around a corner unexpectidly Im usually shake like a rabbit in a trap
•I get overwhelmed by bright lights.
I have found strobe lights make me sicker than a dog. I was at a 'Rush' concert once and felt like I was floating in my seat and I couldnt walk.
When one song ended I got up and walked away.
•Crowds and groups are too much for me.
Eh.. I love people watching (from a distance)
•I have allergies and skin sensitivities.
Allergies have never really bothered me except in the last few years. My face is broken out worse than EVER right now though
•I avoid anything violent.
When a fight broke out at school Id go the other way. Even hearing the punches would make me sick to my stomach. Usually I dont even watch movies with violence.
•I have a deep, rich imagination and inner world.
I have been told I march to the beat of my own drum. If it wouldnt get me very many looks I might dance down the street with headphones on
Most of the time if Im sitting alone somewhere Ill look around and make up a story about something. In school I use to daydream all the time.
Id stare at the white board and wonder "I wonder who screwed that screw in, what did he look like? What kind of family does he have? Is he still screwing in white boards? What lead him to this job? What was he like as a boy?"


Crazy...? I know.
 
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I don't know all the in's and out's of it - I have just accepted these "feelings" that I get as a part of me and keep an open mind about it. I do believe in the metaphysical and the entire universe resonates with energy and vibrations because I occasionally pick up on very random things that make no sense to me personally. From what you are saying, your feelings are very much stronger than mine and while I try to "open" myself to the feeling, I seem to only be able to take it so far. When I did a fast Google to reply to your post, the first link that I found for the intuitive washttp://www.lyndahilburn.com/articles_psy.htm and while I only skimmed the article, it seemed a pretty good, concise explaination. To answer one of your questions, ".... Intuitive/psychic abilities are present in everyone. As with anything else -- intelligence, singing ability, athletic skills, etc. -- each person comes in with a certain amount of whatever it is, showing up somewhere along a continuum of possibility. And, each of those things can be increased through attention and practice. It's the same with intuitive/psychic abilities." The link above is good - let me know what you think.

•I am very aware of subtleties in my energetic/physical environment.
Usually I can walk into a room where it is silent and I can tell if someones mad and who they are mad at
•I can feel/sense other peoples' moods/energy.
I can walk into a room and "feel" the mood in there. It can be heavy, light, fuzzy, etc
•I'm very sensitive to physical sensations/pain.
Who likes a boo boo?
•I need a lot of alone time.
I like to have spirts of "hang out time" where Ill go see my friends weekends after weekends but after a while of that I will need to rest and stay at home for months on end.
•Caffeine, alcohol, etc., really affect me.
They can and the can not
•I'm bothered by strong smells/aromas.
Yes! They can make me sick...
(but Im not the type to tell the lady with stinky purfume to please step away)
•Loud noises upset me.
I love loud music but if something SPLATS in my house Im usually up out of my seat and raising cane for it to not happen again
•Music is a spiritual experience.
Some of the best times I have is alone in my room listening to really deep music or up dancing
•I startle easily.
lol.png
I try to be tough and expect things to happen but if you come around a corner unexpectidly Im usually shake like a rabbit in a trap
•I get overwhelmed by bright lights.
I have found strobe lights make me sicker than a dog. I was at a 'Rush' concert once and felt like I was floating in my seat and I couldnt walk.
When one song ended I got up and walked away.
•Crowds and groups are too much for me.
Eh.. I love people watching (from a distance)
•I have allergies and skin sensitivities.
Allergies have never really bothered me except in the last few years. My face is broken out worse than EVER right now though
•I avoid anything violent.
When a fight broke out at school Id go the other way. Even hearing the punches would make me sick to my stomach. Usually I dont even watch movies with violence.
•I have a deep, rich imagination and inner world.
I have been told I march to the beat of my own drum. If it wouldnt get me very many looks I might dance down the street with headphones on
Most of the time if Im sitting alone somewhere Ill look around and make up a story about something. In school I use to daydream all the time.
Id stare at the white board and wonder "I wonder who screwed that screw in, what did he look like? What kind of family does he have? Is he still screwing in white boards? What lead him to this job? What was he like as a boy?"


Crazy...? I know.

No Sarah, I do not think you are crazy. I, personally, have a very open mind and do not discount anything in this life - explained or unexplained. Just because I can't explain or understand some things doesn't mean that I don't believe in the possiblity. In my own opinion, I feel that we are born being very intuitive and very, for lack of a better word, "open" to things. Think of children who have "make believe" childhood friends. I think that as we get older, family/school/friends/society desensitizes us to these intuitive feelings and openness because it isn't the "norm" and as such, may not be acceptable. Most children, in order to fit in and "belong" seem to gradually lose that innocence, imagination and openness until it is so far supressed that it only seemed like a childhood fantasy when they look back on it. Most people are also used to an orderly world where everything fits into a nice, neat little package - thus the unexplained or unexplainable is thrown out the window as rubbish. Again, I do not think you are crazy and for as much as I know you from this forum, I happen to like you just the way you are!
 

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