I retired three years ago after being a nurse since 1975. I'm not going to lie to anyone. Nursing isn't what it's portrayed to be on TV. It's stressful, hard, emotionally, mentally and physically demanding. You are abused often by patients, by patient's families and by the people you work for. I've been kicked, spit upon, cursed at, injured and overworked to the point of being a hazard to the very people I was being paid to take care of. At the risk of sounding conceited, I was good at what I did. I rose from being the newest hired nurse to being second shift charge in three years and many a night I set in the parking lot and cried before I went and clocked in.
I didn't truly like my work until I went to work with my husband who is an eye doctor, now retired also. I found my niche. Nursing isn't just working at a hospital or facility. It's so many more things that are much more enjoyable and a lot less demanding on your body and soul. So yes, my advice is like CapricornFarm said. Keep your license up, have faith and wait. If you are truly being called to serve, you will find your niche. If not, you won't pure and simple and you will move on.
Don't worry Kenny. Things will work out for you. Just be patient, no puns intended. It sounds as though you have been beating yourself up over this long enough. Time to start being good to Kenny.
I didn't truly like my work until I went to work with my husband who is an eye doctor, now retired also. I found my niche. Nursing isn't just working at a hospital or facility. It's so many more things that are much more enjoyable and a lot less demanding on your body and soul. So yes, my advice is like CapricornFarm said. Keep your license up, have faith and wait. If you are truly being called to serve, you will find your niche. If not, you won't pure and simple and you will move on.
Don't worry Kenny. Things will work out for you. Just be patient, no puns intended. It sounds as though you have been beating yourself up over this long enough. Time to start being good to Kenny.
