Can I get some more prayers?

A lot of you know I lost both of my parents last year and then my husband.

I didn't get the chance to know his family well at all. After his mom and my sister died 4 years ago we went back to PA while he went to help take care of his mom's things.

I got to meet this older brothers and sisters. Only once really, but we stayed a couple of days with his sister. She was really nice. We stayed with her and her husband, who I only saw twice and his niece.

Anyway, I had to tell his sister when he died and she told the others.

This week she called and asked how I was. I don't really have anyone to talk to about Bill but my kids and so I did my usually, I miss him so much and can't believe he's gone. The usual, because she loved him and I knew I could do that with her. She doesn't call often and I was so excited to hear from her.

Well after she did the comforting SIL thing, she told me her husband had committed suicide in Dec. I was shocked. They didn't see it coming and she's in shock and here I am telling her how aweful I feel and how lost. Well that wasn't the end of it. Bill's oldest brother has stage 4 cancer and they've given him 3-6 months! She said she hadn't called me sooner, because she knew I wasn"t doing well and she felt bad about having to let me know.

Bill was my number 3, but he was her number 1. I feel so bad and there's nothing I can do to help them. I can't even take care of us.

I was hoping that whatever you do, pray, light candles, whatever, please pray for his family. Bill wasn't really close to his family, but he really really loved them. I hate that they are dealing with all of this.

I was hoping all the bad things from last year were going to be over and this year was going ot be a little better. That I would find a way to keep us afloat and that we weren't going to go through this again, but here we go!

This forum has always been very supportive, so I'm hoping you all do add them to whoever and whatever you are already praying for.

Thanks

Kim

 

Thank you all.

I've had more things going on here lately and just can't seem to get a post done. I can't seem to get anything done and still trying to figure out how I'm going to support us. I guess I'm not loney enough for SSDI ID???? I forget, Anyway I was turned down. Car broke down and I used next months rent to fix it and now it has to have the computer charged at the dealership which is an arm and a leg, so no way to even get my son back and forth to school. He's missed so much because of me already that I'm now dealing with the school district and it's just getting worse. So please if you have a few more prayers in there we need them.

Because of the car, I wasn't able to get to the cemetery and pick up Bill's tree and the ornaments, so they'll dispose of them on the 20th. I really need to move closer to where he's buried.


While you're at it, I do need to move away from here. My son won't even walk out the door except to get in the car. I'm so tired of high speed chases, gun shots and gang warfare I could scream. Thing is if I scream the place will be surronded by cops and the way they are here, I'll end up with hurt kids and animals.

So a little miracle prayer for us too please.



I tried to call my SIL yesterday, but got the voice mail.

I felt so bad about our call the other day and I left her a message telling her I love her and I'm so sorry that I went on for too long, when she should have been able to talk more.

I'm going to do the best I can to finally have some kind of relationship with his family. Bill stayed away for some good reasons, but we didn't have children together so since I've only met two of them and one of those is so hard to find, I just want to be able to talk to his famly and feel like I still have a part of his someplace.

Not sure if I can help her, I'm financially worse off than she is, but I know just like everyone else these days she's been going through some problems too. I'd at least like ot be able to just talk to her or listen to her talk if she needs to.

Anyway I just wanted to thank you all for the prayers and yeah I added a few. Sorry, but needed.