I'm sorry for your loss. It seems we get more attached to the sick ones. But sometimes no matter what we do, they will still die. Don't beat yourself up about not sitting with her. We can only do so much for them. You gave her some good days in the end and that's what's important.She ended up passing overnight....
She absolutely hated and feared us, so why does it hurt this much?
I should've stayed by her side so she didn't have to go alone.
I was tossing and turning all night thinking about her, its not like I was getting any sleep anyway.
I just wanted her to get some rest. But I could've sat with her in the darkness.
This was our mistake, and we won't make it again.
I'll check in on each of them no matter how long I have to chase them, how much they struggle and scratch me... they will be properly cared for.
We probably shouldn't have gone for such desperate cases... but at least she had better conditions in her final days. And the others are doing well, albeit scared of some of the original birds.
They all slept on the top roost last night. That's what I'll cling to. The start of them all getting along.
I got the safeguard dewormer last night, we'll make sure the rest of the new ones get treated properly.
Her name was Doodle. Because she would run in squiggly patterns to get away from us. She was truly sweet though.
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Goodbye, Doodle... Thank you for everything you gave us and taught us.