Just need to get some stuff off my mind..put my emotions "in check" and unwind so I can go to bed. The last few days have been bombarded with bad news of things happening to people I love very much, and I just am having a hard time coping. First was the shock of a friend doing something I never thought they would to the tune of 23 years behind bars. Although very much deserved...it still hurts that the person was NOT who I thought they were, and that friendship is OVER in the blink of an eye, no time for adjustment, and still I'm just very SHOCKED. Then another old buddy, who I hadn't talked to in almost a decade pops back onto the scene with major issues with family. When my friends hurt I hurt...I'm just that way. NOW tonight I found out of a recently reunited after 15 years friend who was happily married, doing well, is now facing divorce....just like that. And all I can think about is those kids growing up without a daddy, and well...it just rips my heart out. These are folks I grew up with, and have loved FOREVER, closer than family, often stood in as family when I was going through mess with my bio family. Sometimes it WOULD be nice to go back in time and just play stickball in the abandoned lot, and not forget to tell them I loved them. UGH..I just want to curl up and stick my fingers in my ears and scream so I can't hear anymore negative news!! This may not even make sense to anyone...I dunno, don't care really, but just had to get it all out of my head. I miss innocence...mine and theirs. Wish things were different and everyone could be happy and get along and just simply do the right thing..........