Been there...done that, lol. Last year I went through hell but i did come out the other side, just as you will. Stronger and wiser. If you don't already, start a notebook with all you do, have done, what works and what doesn't. This will become your 'go to' in the future. Write down all meds, their dosage and withdrawel times. You see something on here that makes sense to you...write that down as well as well as the thread where you found it. Good luck!