Child At Heart, Monster By Nature (A Shape Shifting RP)

[StarrNico]

Zaine sighed softly. Why did girls have to be so confusing?? Why did people have to be so confusing?? "You can't hide in here forever," he muttered. "When I was younger, I tried this. Hiding in my room from the world and people, but it didn't get me anywhere except labels like closed and arrogant. People are awful, I'm with you there, but good people do exist. And I know it's sometimes hard to see them, but you've got to take a few chances to find the good ones. I'm asking you to take a chance on me. Please." He looked to her with pleading eyes, desperate to draw her out of this shell for both their sakes.

Donella wrapped her arms around herself tighter, feeling tears prick at her eyes as he spoke "Why not? Why can't I just stay hidden away? I don't know how to interact with people. I don't care what kind of names they give me, I wouldn't have to hear them." She said then wiped at her eyes with a hand "I did take a chance. I went against my nature and tried to be out there among people. I tried despite my fears, despite my anxieties, despite my nature. I did try."
She wanted to run away and hide somewhere, but couldn't move. "Don't you understand that? Everything in me says to be alone or at most with one other for a short time. I am a shy introvert with the kodkod's secrecy overlaying that. Any interaction, even with someone as kind and good-natured as Andorra is hard for me. That's why I live in books, I can find any information anyone wants, verify it and give it to anyone. That is what I do, find information, memorize trivia, spy. That was my role when I was made. I could hack into anything if I wanted. I was not made to be social." She tried to make him understand even through her tears

 

[Nariah01]

(wait for morning?)

(Sure we will just wait until morning for these two.)

 

[silkiecuddles]

Donella wrapped her arms around herself tighter, feeling tears prick at her eyes as he spoke "Why not? Why can't I just stay hidden away? I don't know how to interact with people. I don't care what kind of names they give me, I wouldn't have to hear them." She said then wiped at her eyes with a hand "I did take a chance. I went against my nature and tried to be out there among people. I tried despite my fears, despite my anxieties, despite my nature. I did try."
She wanted to run away and hide somewhere, but couldn't move. "Don't you understand that? Everything in me says to be alone or at most with one other for a short time. I am a shy introvert with the kodkod's secrecy overlaying that. Any interaction, even with someone as kind and good-natured as Andorra is hard for me. That's why I live in books, I can find any information anyone wants, verify it and give it to anyone. That is what I do, find information, memorize trivia, spy. That was my role when I was made. I could hack into anything if I wanted. I was not made to be social." She tried to make him understand even through her tears

Zaine's frown deepened as she went on. "I understood, more than you think," he said quietly. It hurt so much—more than he cared to admit, watching her cry as she poured out her heart. But she was progressing, even if she didn't know it. And at least she hadn't demanded that he leave yet. "But, Donella, what good are all your books and pent up knowledge if you aren't willing to go out and share it with others? You can't expect others to always come to you. That's just not the way it works, sadly." He stood up to leave. He'd said all could think to say to convince her otherwise; it was up to her what she did with his words.

 

[StarrNico]

Zaine's frown deepened as she went on. "I understood, more than you think," he said quietly. It hurt so much—more than he cared to admit, watching her cry as she poured out her heart. But she was progressing, even if she didn't know it. And at least she hadn't demanded that he leave yet. "But, Donella, what good are all your books and pent up knowledge if you aren't willing to go out and share it with others? You can't expect others to always come to you. That's just not the way it works, sadly." He stood up to leave. He'd said all could think to say to convince her otherwise; it was up to her what she did with his words.

"What good is any of our knowledge Zaine?" Donella asked, following him with her eyes "We are never leaving this school, we are as much prisoners here as we were at the labs, but at least there we had a purpose, a reason to exist. Here, what do we have? We will never be accepted out in the real world. We are freaks, experiments who no longer have a reason to exist." She looked away, towards her window then shifted and moved to hide under her bed once more. She was done talking and not even hungry anymore even though she hadn't ate.

 

[silkiecuddles]

"What good is any of our knowledge Zaine?" Donella asked, following him with her eyes "We are never leaving this school, we are as much prisoners here as we were at the labs, but at least there we had a purpose, a reason to exist. Here, what do we have? We will never be accepted out in the real world. We are freaks, experiments who no longer have a reason to exist." She looked away, towards her window then shifted and moved to hide under her bed once more. She was done talking and not even hungry anymore even though she hadn't ate.

Stopping at the door, Zaine clenched and unclenched his hands as he sighed irritably. He'd been thinking over the very same things and had yet come to no conclusion. Would a purposeful death be any worse than their useless lives here?
"I'm sorry for bothering you," he murmured before slipping out, pulling the door closed behind him.

 

[StarrNico]

Donella sighed and curled up in as tight of a ball of fur as she could. Nothing had been resolved with this, not to her anyway. She just let him go. What else was there to say?

 

[silkiecuddles]

Zaine shifted and flew down the hall for his own room. Only when he arrived did he realize he had left his book, but no way was he going back there now. He'd only made things worse in his attempt to mend, he was sure, and facing Donella again—or even worse, Andorra—was low down on his to-do list. He had to shift to open the door, which brought forth a lot of muttering and words his parents would have grounded him for if he'd been home. Home. Geez it sounded terribly nice, even if he was grounded. Shutting the door hard behind him, he went to his bed and plopped down on his back.

 

[Run Wild]

(Anyone home?)

 

[Nariah01]

(I am on, but one of my characters is done till morning, and three of them are with Nicky so not much to do. I haven't decided how to do my newest school character yet. I guess if someone has an open school character that they want to play with let me know. Otherwise I wait. )

 

[silkiecuddles]

(I am on, but one of my characters is done till morning, and three of them are with Nicky so not much to do. I haven't decided how to do my newest school character yet. I guess if someone has an open school character that they want to play with let me know. Otherwise I wait. )

(I'm waiting on @HoodedHuntress and Nicky for most of my characters.

If I had any open ones, I'd play with you )