I feel sick and defeated thinking that the direction that I had decided to take in my life was the wrong one. I can’t find a job in my field and I don’t have the means to continue my education and even if I did, would I then be able to find a job close to home, within driving distance? They tell you college is the key to success but what they leave out is, when the government has gone to crap and there are no jobs available, not even for someone with a degree, there is nothing for you to do and you just have to deal with it. I surely thought that with this degree and good grades in one hand and being able to speak Spanish and an eagerness to continue to learn in the other, no one could stop me. But another thing that they left out is… Agriculture is a man's world! I never wanted to admit that before (Because my teachers, especially the female ones, always made it seem like an equal opportunity playground), but now that I've tried to apply at 3 different feed companies within the area, every time that I have walked in to receive or to turn in an application all I see is men, and all they see is a small girl who shouldn't work there. I don't know if they would just hate the fact that I'm smarter than them (if that were the case) or they just think I can't do anything. Also I'm so tired of getting on all these ag job websites to not seeing any job openings ever within a reasonable driving distance. And I just wonder when that one does come up and I am qualified, is it another company just looking to hire a man?!?!? I wouldn't change my field for anything, I love Agriculture. I love everything about what Agriculture is and should be, but I hate the fact that MEN still feel the need to think they are superior to a woman just because they are physically stronger. All I want is to find a job in Agriculture, which is within a reasonable driving distance, where I can put to use what I've learned and continue to learn. And I can't move either. My father just passed away and I just inherited close to 300 acres of land that now me and my husband have to take care of (Nor would I sell it, because my daddy was my everything, and so now anything that he gave me means everything to me). And I can't wait forever for that job either!!!! And if one more person tells me I should have been a nurse or a teacher, I swear I will show them why I could never be one!!!!!