I'm really having a hard time with this tonight. This is going to be more of me just letting it go a little... I home alone tonight and it's kind of getting to me. I have really grown attached to these two little chicks and I wish I had not. I name my birds, but have avoided giving these two names in the hopes that I would have any easier time letting go... it's not working. Each time I hold them to feed them or help to exercise them I find myself thinking "if they get better what kind of name would suit them?". There are positives and negatives, ups and downs during my day with them. They seems like they are making progress and then I take a step back and try to see long term and wonder if I am just prolonging the inevitable.
Today the little yellow one is so energetic. He eats and drinks with such enthusiasm. I keep him in his chair all day long and take him out a couple of times to let him move a little. I have his chair low enough that his little feet can touch the ground and he is able to move his chair a little. His only real problem is no balance. If he could learn to balance he would be fine... but how do you teach that? For this reason I am assuming the problem is neurological and realistically how can he improve? I am fine with a special needs bird... I even played with the idea of making him a little chair that he can live in as an adult. I told my oldest son my idea (he's 13 and a huge animal person, though he tries to come off as being tough and unaffected by this), his response to me about the chair is "that would be a miserable life for him"...
The little black chick is so strong. He is constantly escaping his chair except at night when the lights are out. The he sleeps peacefully through the night. I have been trying to keep an eye on his toes to make sure that the circulation was not cut off by the wrap on put on his slipped tendon. Tonight the toes started to look slightly different in color - still warm, still can feel sensation and move them. I know that they grow rapidly so I removed the wrap. I was so scared as to what I was going to find. I took the wrap off and the tendon held in place! Now he is still holding the leg out straight but I think it may just be stiff from being extended (I had the same issue when they took the cast off of my leg). But he did bend it briefly and re-extend it. I did put him back in his chair only because I did not want him to bare weight on it yet. I just don't know though if I should put the wrap back on it or let it be... (I know that I'm rambling so if no one is reading by this point it's okay... but if someone is...)What do you think I should do?! Rewrap it or leave it? If I am making progress with his slipped tendon I don't want him to bend the leg too soon and displace it again. But I also don't want to keep it on too long and fix one problem only to replace it with another. I had the wrap on for 31 hours.
Someone told me today that I should be thinking of quality of life and I should just put the birds down now. The thing is I'm not sure I can do it now. I have been reading up on the CO2 chamber. I could make it, but I cannot see myself putting them in and closing the lid... what if they get scared and start to scream... I think I may take them out. God I'm sitting here crying while I write this. Sometimes I HATE being an animal person.