Cynthia,
I am SO sorry. I too hope you will put a bunch more Hawkeye eggs in the incubator... I am sure there would be takers for any extras. After all, Zane can't be the only stripped rooster running around your place. You need more!! Don't beat yourself. That doesn't do much more than tenderize your back. It won't bring the special guy back to you.
My mom was telling me the other day that she felt sad that some of our meat birds were dying. I told her "Mom, it makes me sad too because we try to make life good for them while they are here, but at least we learn something new each time and change how we do things a bit." Your experience you have shared with us has taught us all something or at least reminded us all of the fragile nature of life, especially in the chicken world. I know you will miss him terribly!!