Diary of a FAT cow!

[katescountryfarm]

I'm so happy for you! I know it's hard to lose weight. I just started the south beach diet. But really I think I'm starving myself. I only eat half of the foods listed as "good" due to allergies.

 

[oesdog]

Sweet 10.2! I must admit I do check that spoiler right away.Congrats. I strained yogurt and kefir to make a *cheese* spread for my crackers and rice cakes.Turned out good.Well what will the moo be replaced with, because you can't be calling yourself a cow. Best wishes!

I think I already said that once I got down to the right weight for my height - the normal reading for my BMI - I would be a slim Chick not a FAT cow! Moooo I must admit though I have become very fond of the Fat cow Diary!!! I will miss her in a strange sort of way. Probably because I have always loved bovines very much indeed but that doesn’t mean I want to look like I have 4 stomachs. I am not changing the title of this thread. There are good reasons for that.

Some folk sadly have felt that in some way it was done as a self-defamation type of thing. That is not true. As I have said I adore cows so I am not offended by my affinity with them. As for the FAT in the title - As I described in my first post I had to face reality. I AM FAT - I am still overweight by a good 6 lbs. At the start of this I was much fatter. I am not afraid to describe myself as FAT because that is what I am. Part of getting oneself into a mind set to actually do something about ones weight is accepting the facts. It isn’t any good sugar coating it with statements like, "oh well I am just BIG boned!” Or "I’m just cuddly!" These are just excuses and excuses are - the skin of a reason stuffed with a lie. We can keep on lying to ourselves and telling ourselves all of those nice sugar coated excuses but in the end it won’t help us to change.

Sometimes it just takes courage to stand naked in front of a mirror - take a good long look and a deep breath and say it how it is. It is only at that point that things can change and the only person that can truly do that is us. No one else is responsible for what we choose to put into our mouth. The beginning of change is acceptance and forgiveness. We need to forgive ourselves for all those wrong choices and then only then can we start to make right ones.

So I am not changing the title to accommodate folk who may be offended by my larger bovine self. I am glad of her and thankful to her because she made me see me for who I really was and taught me to want to change. She has become a friend, not someone to be offended by but someone that I needed to embrace and forgive and change. She is also a beautiful woman. I just hope that I will remember her and not choose to become her again!!!!!!

Oes

 

[oesdog]

I'm so happy for you! I know it's hard to lose weight. I just started the south beach diet. But really I think I'm starving myself. I only eat half of the foods listed as "good" due to allergies.

You must be mindful of what your body needs to survive. Starving yourself is not going to help you lose weight it will just make you ill and miserable! Go see your DR and work out a good ballanced diet that takes into account of your allergies!
Some diets simply are not good - you must make sure you follow what is right for you.

Oes

 

[oesdog]

DAY TWENTY-FIVE
31st August


Last night 10.3
This morning 10.2

Breakfast
(1) Coffee white no sugar.
HIgh fibre & Iron cerial with warm milk. ( Think I need it!)

Excersize
1 hour walk

Morning snack
(2) Coffee white no sugar.
Ginger biscuit.

Lunch
(3) Coffee white no sugar.
Chicken soup

Afternoon snack
(4) Coffee white no sugar.
Fruit waffer.

Dinner
Trout in Lemon juice and mixed veg. Zuccini, tomato and sweetcorn with a small boiled potato.
Glass of weight watchers wine! ( got it to try - it's not bad !)

Evening
Glass of wine and - OMG chocolate swirls. ( Well it is that week and I deserve a chocolate treat!)


Excersize


How do I feel
Like chicken poo!!!!!! - My head is aching, my stomach churning, I feel like I am going to throw all of the time, myvision is affected and so is my ballance and I feel really grotty and want to tear the head off anyone who looks at me sideways. DH has gone for cover!

 

[Mattemma]

Hope you feel better soon.Yay 10.2! I was 188 this am.Finally out of the 190's! Wine sounds good. I am looking for a low cal beer.Becks is the lowest I have found at 64 calories a bottle.Happy weekend!

 

[oesdog]

Thanks I really suffer from hormone imballance and I can;t take Iron either which makes me ill. So I am just going to have a nice easy night drink some wine and suck some chocolate. I have made it my plan to only take Chocolate on the Friday of "that week"! Just so I don;t dive into a big vat of it anytime soon!

Oes

 

[mom'sfolly]

Good luck....those hormones can rally do a job on you. I find that the week before "that week" all I want to do is eat. I'm not much fun to be around either.

on 10.2

 

[oesdog]

Maybe that is why I was thinking the way I was the other day. Gosh I was nearly in tears over some food in the shop that I wasn;t able to have! I keep dreaming of chips too. How sad is that?
This is a bad week for me in that way. It seems to have come round so fast. I remember when I started the Fat cow diary and I was suffering the bad migrains from that last months "week". ( the good thing is I am a stone 14lbs lighter than then!!!!!!)
I would sure love someone to have an idea of how to get through without having those bad heads because it really is draining. I am so tired. - At least I ate better today and wasn;t feeling as sick. It just seems a bit bad to be on such a strict diet and then end up being ill on top! Not fare one bit!!!!!!!!

Anyhow I will wait and see what the overnight weight loss fairy does? Maybe she will visit? though I admit to eating 5 chocolate swirls.

Oes

 

[oesdog]

DAY TWENTY-SIX
1st Sept


10.3 pm
10.2 This morning. No sign of the weight loss fairy and I feel I am stuck a bit but then this is "that week" so I am hoping it's fluid?
the days are running out.



Breakfast
(1) Coffee white no sugar.
Yogurt low fat

Excersize
Scrubbed utilty, Kitchen and and downstairs bathroom and did 4 loads of washing.
Think I am done now!

Morning snack
(2) Coffee white no sugar.
Chocolate swirl! Ok I was bad!

Lunch
(3) Coffee white no sugar.
2x paprika flavoured rice cakes, well they are low fat and easy to munch on the run.

Afternoon snack
(4) Coffee white no sugar.
none

Dinner
Home made veg soup - lovely and tasty and very filling.
Fruit flavoured water.

Evening

Excersize


How do I feel
I kind of feel like a train pulling into the station! - I know where it is but I wish I could stay on the train for a bit and go further? I wish I could get more weight off and I wish I had another week to go but I don't it is only 7 days before the end of the Fat cow diary. I will be well pleased to get down to 10.1 as that was were I was last year. Anything else is a bonus. I so hope to see a 9 something on the scales????? Will it be there????????? I can't believe I have just a week left to get as much weight off as possible. I am pretty sure now I will get the 10.1 which is my first target to get past. Then I said I would take anything 9 something. So my next target is 9.13 - which is 2lbs away. I think it is doable. - however after that is insanity. I wish that I could see a 9.10 because my BMI reading would be "normal" that is when the Fat cow becomes a slim chick. After that it is just the thought of having single figures 9.9 - how cool would that be???? But 9.10 is 4 lbs away and 9.9 is 5lbs away and I don;t think that is doable in the days I have left unless I don;t eat at all which quite frankly I am unable to do!!!!!! So here is the last week of my diet and I really hope to get down to the 9.10 but I don't think the weight loss fairy is going to be that kind this week.

 

[bluesub]

Your goal when you started was to get down to 10 stone 1 lb. by September 8th, right? You are going to get to that goal so you should feel proud of yourself that you set a goal and it is attainable. I'm guessing that while you are away, you are going to continue to eat healthy things (you wouldn't want to come back NOT fitting into your clothes...).