Thank you so much. I was so in love with those babies and still get choked up thinking about everything my precious Ellie had to go through in her last few weeks of life. Watching her suffer from seizures just out of the blue, days after Jesse died, was extremely traumatic for me, so i can't imagine how awful it was for her. The diagnostics that followed had to be terrifying for her too. I did not wait to get more furbabies. I was desperately trying to replace Ellie (how sad, pathetic, and wrong of me) since i didn't expect to lose her (which isn't an excuse for me trying to replace her with a sweet innocent puppy) at such a young age. The lady that i purchased Ellie from was still breeding Ellie's father, so i got a half sister of Ellie's. Her name is Hallie Mae. I also got a male from a breeder a few hours from me. She was having trouble finding a home for one of her male pups. He was 5 months old and had some emotional issues but Jake Roscoe is such a loyal lovebug! It took a while to form a bond with them but i was finally able to see them for who they are and love them because of it. Like you, my relationship is different with Jake and Hallie as my daughter has been in the picture for their entire lives, unlike with Jesse and Ellie. I am grateful for Jake and Hallie and love them dearly. Thanks again for your reply <3
Nothing wrong with this at all. I took the opposite emotions, I lost my Misty (Siberian Husky 14 yrs old) and my Nannok (German Shepherd 6 yrs) to a type of pinched nerve that caused her to have no muscular control of her hind quarters within 3 weeks of each other and it absolutely broke me for 4 years. It took me almost 2 years before I could watch the Animal Planet channel vet shows (which I love watching) because it might have a dog that reminded me of these two. Said many times for years when asked if I was getting another dog, "I'm just not ready for another dog yet."
My adult daughter decided she wanted to get a Aussie puppy and when we visited the breeder to check her out and her us, I was in pure heaven being around the pups. We went up a second time to visit my daughter's 6 week old pup and got play even more with puppies. My wife and daughter decided that it was the happiest they'd seen me in a long time and that it was time for me to have another dog; heck I'm tearing up just writing about this.
What I didn't know was my wife had been secretly talking to the breeder about when the next liter was due and bought me an Aussie with a different male and female. Once my pup's liter was born, the wife surprised me by showing me the puppy pictures of my boy, Obi. We went to pick up my daughter's "Farynn" a couple of weeks later and I got to see my pup "Obi" but couldn't touch him because he was still to young and is Mom was still very protective. Needless to say I cried a little when I saw him. Then all this COVID mess started and the breeder was an ER RN and things got REALLY nuts. As a result the breeder had to make a decision if the liter was mature enough to leave before 9 weeks of age or if it was safer to wait longer than 12 weeks. The decision was made that the liter was advancing in maturity and basic house training, so we got him at 7 weeks of age.
When we picked him up, I took 2 weeks off from work, slept next to him in his crate most nights, and pretty much ignored everyone else.
Now Farryn along with my daughter now live with us due to a COVID lay-off and things have worked out pretty sweet with schedules and raising them together.
So, to make a long story short (too late now

) , is that everyone is different in how they handle the loss of a pet. As long as you don't expect the new one to be the pet you lost and allow them to develop into their own person (I mean pet), it's all good.