Don't have much fight left in me...

[CityGirlintheCountry]

I have Crohns (the symptoms are similar to yours). It is very stressful dealing with doctors and insurance companies and drug side effects and all of that.

Keep in mind that if you are on sterioids, they can screw with your emotions. Prednisone (steriod) makes me mean and hateful and very, very emotional. When I am on it I feel like my life is spiraling out of control and stay depressed. Once I figured out that it was the drugs reacting and not ME, it made everything a lot easier to handle.

PM me if you want to chat. I totally understand where you are coming from.

 

[zippitydooda]

As overwhelming as things may seem, if you try to focus on one thing at a time that may help. Take the smallest chore & set a goal on how to accomplish it. Then do it. When you have finished that one, move on the the next smallest. Do the same with the bills. Pay off the smallest one & work your way up. That will give you a sense of accomplishment & will help get rid of the depression.

Contact the medical facility billing department. Sometimes they "write off" or reduce the bills for those who fall within certain income guidelines. My husband has emphysema & was in ICU overnight & racked up a $16,000 bill. We ended up making payments on about $3,000. The hospital saw he was disabled & I work 30 hours. Also, we get his medication free from the pharmaceutical company. They have programs for a lot of those meds. From what I'm guessing, your illness is chronic.... stay hydrated & hang in there.

On another note, I don't know how old your children are, but they can help get that garden ready & pull weeds.... the produce from your garden would reduce the weekly grocery bill & the kids would feel like they were contributing to the family.

Good luck to you on your journey... you will be in my prayers.
Jean

 

[NurseELB]

You are a strong woman, and your family thinks you ROCK!

My best to you and your family.

 

[WriterofWords]

Sometimes you HAVE to get it off your chest. It's not whining,, it's a needed unloading of stress at the moment.

 

[calicokat]

Yes, that's what we're here for - you vent & feel a little relief, we read and maybe even offer a good idea or two, or when we don't have any ideas, we just send

 

[chickeypoo]

All i can say is what i have experienced myself.. when i am down and don't feel like doing anything.. not even the things i love to do.. i make myself do them.. then when i start to do them.. i start to feel better. gets my head out of it a bit. good luck and many hugs.

 

[DaKid]

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Don't have much fight left in me...I am exhausted from fighting...fighting with the insurance company which leads to fighting with my hubby which leads to fighting with myself.

you have a lot of fight in you just dig down deep it's there

I have been trying to get treatment for a chronic illness since January. The insurance company denied one medication that is very effective and another medication is subject to my deductible which means that I have to pay $1000 out of pocket before they'll cover anything. Needless to say, I don't have $1000.

I too have been in ur shoes

Due to my illness, I have trouble working.....can't really expect an employer to be okay with me running to the restroom 6-10 times per day. The insurance will completely cover a third medication that has awful side effects (potential cancers) and can take up to 3 months to show effectiveness. In the meantime, I'm jacked up on high doses of steroids, subject to horrible mood swings, water retention and sleeplessness. I'm a real peach to be around!!!



On top of all this, my husband desperately needs surgery to fix a torn rotator cuff and is REFUSING!! He's (rightfully) afraid we'll lose our house when he's off on disability for 6 weeks. We are struggling to make it as is, so reducing his pay to 60% will be suicide.

I just don't think I can fight anymore. We amazingly accumulated $1200 in a 3 weeks. My 11yr old daughter had a kidney stone and was seen in the ER to the tune of $378 and my son needed stitches on his chin to the tune of $241, Hubby had to have an MRI and I had to have a colonoscopy. We are paying almost $350 a month for insurance and it seems like it doesn't buy us anything!!!

All of this stress is causing depression too. I to now am on depression pills to each and every day just to cope I haven't even begun my garden...I just don't have the energy or desire. I've stopped going to most social events, I only clean my house when it's disgusting and bordering on a health hazard. My kid's homeschooling lessons have fallen a little behind and to be perfectly honest.....I don't really care. Inside, I know I should care...I just can't seem to find that emotion anymore. You need to do the thing that you enjoy like gardering , for me it was my garden and chickens and the other aminals that keep me going while I was on Chemo every other week for 10 hrs aday Seems like the harder I fight, the worse it gets.U need to keep strong and keep the figth up as for ur husband he need to do what is best for all of you to and get this shoulder fix also

I apologize for sounding like a whiney brat....I just needed a place to get these awful feeling off my chest. I can't talk to my hubby as it just adds to his burden and my extended family has problems of their own. I know everyone faces problems and my situation isn't unique or extreme in any way...but it's mine and in my life it's a big deal.

I feel ur pain and I two was in ur shoes back in Dec. 2008 near christmas time ,
I was stage 4 with cancer which was all on my left side , spline ' heart, lungs and kindey and liver .....they gave me only 6 months to live, with a wife , a new home of 3 yrs and 2 children and a grandchild ,plus a rental house which my in-laws live in and other familys members .......................So I been there , it S cks . but guess what you can do it . 1st of all you need ur doctor to state that you illness is interfearing with your life and job and he needs to get you on perment disabilty .........

I did and they wanted me to keep working part time which in my case there no part time or lite duty in union construstion ........I almost lost everything both houses and my life , I'm still fighting to get the mortgage lowered and trying to cope with everything else but I must say I thank GOD and all that pray for me I here today and my cancer well it's in remission ...
so hang in there and I will do what othere did for me and pray for you ( and I was not a real god beliver before But I'm Now) becuz the prays works , my heart was strong and I wasn't really ready to give up thje fight as of yet .


You can do it , just take one day at a time and deal want hand is coming , you and ur family must be strong , and figth ..........


You and ur's with be in my prayers , but don't give up the fight as of yet




God Bless ,


Alan​