I feel for you on so many levels God knows I love my babies.
They are spoiled so badly it really isn't funny but they love unconditionally, giving all they have to you.
They are there when you laugh,
comfort you when you cry or grieve.
The make you smile when you are convinced everything sucks.
They only ask for reasonable food ,occasional treats, some affection every now & then, vaccinations ( well they may not like them but are necessary ). They live in our hearts forever.
My thoughts & prayers go with you during your difficult time.