You have my prayers and blessings...^
I remember the decades between my daughter's 14th birthday and 17th. They lasted around 30 years..
I had a few daily activities I did:
1) Drinking vast quantities of adult beverages to make it through the day
2) Begging my Doctor for heavy meds
3) Contemplating if life in prison was worse than this
4) writing my legislators to ask why they would not consider making filicide legal...
However, when it was all over, she became my perfect child again, then found the perfect son in law for me and gave me the perfect grandchildren. So they is hope, might I suggest brandy for now?