I know, but I cant do it. I cant even take her, he says he can take her outback but then he says he dont think he can either, He is the one that has to take her to vet to do it, I just cant. He even swore last night why we cant just give her a shot here and be done with it. without causing extra stress on her and us. it just sucks and like I said, I can do many things, but even taking her and watching her, I cant go there again, I refuse to. plus I am even more of a emotional whimp as I grow old. hate that!