Yes, Sumi,
I know just where you're coming from and I could read between those lines. I'm sorry for you too. We are "sympatico". Terrible what humans can do to eachother especially to the less strong or helpless. Let's not one up each other on this forum for their good
and ours. Those memories are best left untouched and in the "try to forget and move on" file. Defend the weak and listen to your children and other's children.
Chickens, as the BYC bumper sticker on my truck says: Chickens are Cheep Therapy.
I've got 1 gal who will die of old age. Her name is Blanche. She was so colorless and common when she was young and the name just fit. She's my fav bird. She sneeks into the house and will not poop. She jumps at any opportunity, onto my shoulder. Her desire in life is to be cuddled near me. With over 30 hens, she sure makes herself special even though her name is Blanche. There's Buttercup, Peacock, Puhi, Babe, Sande, Clara and I could go on, but Blanche gives me joy.
Almost all of my hens now have their own aprons with their name and leg ring number hand embroidered on it. Some are made of dalmation spotted cloth, purples, lime greens etc. Blanche's is of course, brown.
Love my birds. Glad to be amongst fellow enthusiasts.