Fallen deep into a funk....possible cervical cancer....UPDATE

[Chew593]

I'm agreeing with everyone else... you should check in with your Doc and let them know you aren't snapping back. Keep talking about it too... to your friends, to us... takes the power out of it!

 

[KatyTheChickenLady]

If youare tight on money or without insurance most states have a program to cover dr and meds for depression; which from the out side we can see and from the inside you just feel. pick up the phone call a dr, a friend, a nurse, a state agency,. Show your husband this email thread and ask for his help, what you need ight now is someone to take care of YOU.

 

[Thomas423]

Agree with all the other posts.......see a Dr.......keep the faith, things always get better.......and so sorry for all you troubles. But want to add.......all states have a daycare assistance program. It's a great program where they pay all or part of your licensed day care. It's designed to help working parents and the portion they pay is based on your income. They will even pay daycare expenses while you look for work and if you go to school. All good daycares accept it.

Also, it sounds like maybe it's time for you to get out and make it on your own. Put you and your chidren first, don't worry about men for a while. You CAN make it on your own. It's much worse to be with the wrong man than to be with no man.

 

[Whispering Winds]

I hope you feel better today; I agree with M@M, just getting up and taking a warm shower, work out those kinks, put your hair up or down, put on some lipstick and mascara, and look in that mirror at what a wonderful, pretty person you are!!! You have so much to offer and get out there and offer it. I am sorry about your back, but there are agencies that will help you pay for stuff, so don't feel shy about asking. Good Luck.

 

[gabrielle1976]

Go see someone about youre depression , also GET OUT OF BED its ok to take naps its ok to be tired its ok to rest , but you have to get up and do things . How old is youre baby? I was up out of bed less then an hour after my son was born though not by choice I didnt get to lay around and stay in bed first becuase they had sent him to a huge childrens hospital out of town and I had to get there myself , walk to and from the NICU , to and from the Ronald Mc Donald house ect but after that I went to MOPS ( I suggest you look for a local chapter of that its a group that meets about 2 times a month and its all women that have kids under 5 ) I visited friends and I took walks with him in a stroller or snuggie , inbetween his hospitalzations and surgries and many many many many Dr apointments , my son had about 10 specalists and peds and in the first couple months went to Dr apointments about 2 to 3 times a week when he wasnt in the hospital . All of this would have overwhelmed me and sunk me deep into depression if I hadnt gotten up and gotten out and done things , Resting and takeing naps is important but laying around all day in bed will do nothing but make you more depressed then you already are ,
Good luck and remmber everything will be ok even if it gets hard first.

 

[joerogrz]

Amber I feel for ya....

Regardless of how you feel, you should try to get out and do something. Take a walk or whatever. Get your blood pumping and you'll feel better after a while. I know it's going badly for you right now, but try not to let it get you down. I'm having a rough spot here myself and on a personal note I think I need a vacation or a long break anyway.

And another thing.... I personally think you would be better off without medications and such. I've been pretty depressed myself lately and meds just aren't an option for me. Cut your sugar intake and junk food in general. Try to go for a light walk during the day. When your body feels better, you'll feel better mentally as well.

 

[georgialee]

Please please please go to your doctor and tell him. It really sounds like you have ppd and it will get SOOOO much better if you take meds even for a little bit. Having a newborn is one of the best times - you need to be able to enjoy it! I hope the rest of your circumstances start looking up.

 

[crzychickenlady]

As if things weren't bad enough....

I just got a call from my doctors office, they are no longer taking the insurance I have, which is state insurance that is going to be dropped at the end of this month.
I was sposed to have my tubes tied in the next few weeks after my 6 week check up. If I want it done now, I have to pay cash out of pocket for it, when it was sposed to be covered.

I also filed for disability for my back until I can at least get treatment or surgery that I couldn't get while I was pregnant, I was denied because they say I haven't worked enough to qualify. They are letting my file for SSI and that can take months and months.

ALSO.....I had a doctors appointment for my back this morning, which they canceled cos they set it up with the wrong doc and didn't bother to let me know, so now it will be another month or more before I can get another appointment!!

I just feel like every day it's something else slapping me in the face!!
I just want to scream!!

 

[Ndrew777]

Maybe a screen name change would start. I suggest HealthyHappychicknlady! https://www.backyardchickens.com/forum/viewtopic.php?id=143045&p=12

 

[NancyDz]

I'm so sorry you are going through all this!

Can you get a list of doctors that do take the state insurance?
Then try to get an appt asap with one of them? Then at the appt
tell you doc everything you have posted here... including about getting you tubes tied, your back, etc... they should be able to help with some of it... Good luck!

Posting here was a great first step! Hang in there... it's got to get better!


Nancy