Double Kindness -- sorry you are going through this, but you are doing right by her. Either she will pull through, or you know you did your very best trying to help her.
Thanks everyone, for all your words of encouragement. They really do mean a lot to me. Linda, it does help knowing they had happy lives. I agree totally, MountainMom, that this thread changed the way I view meaties. (Thanks again, Jessica!) And, Betsy, you were spot on about dropping the water temperature for the scald. The plucking went much easier today. We processed 6 more meaties this morning, plus a young heritage rooster.
The young rooster was the first time I cried doing this. He was an absolutely gorgeous boy -- all red and gold with black tail feathers. But, he had getting into staring contests with Duke and aggressively jumping the hens. It would have been too hard on the hens to keep him and I didn't want to risk him hurting Duke, who is a wonderful rooster. But, it was tough. He fought the whole way. From the time he went into the carrier to take him butchering area, to taking him out, to doing the deed. We tried to wait until he calmed down, but he just wouldn't, and the slightest movement would set him off again. He's not going to be great eats, probably, but it needed to be done. I'm not sorry to see him gone from the flock, but I cried for the loss of such a magnificent looking bird.
ETA: I just realized that "Red" who we processed today is the lighter colored of the two chicks in my avatar. He went from birth to day on my farm.