Yes it is.
Anyway, the answer to the why question comes and is always the same, thats life!
I arrived home from work in the morning, the sun was not up yet. I can see the sun comming up very early, it comes up from the sea. There was daylight, just not sun yet. After i passed a bottle of milk to my daughter and say happy birthday i took 2 naylon bags and went in the basement...
I know if i just stand and stare at my dead favorite chicken, i can stay for hours wondering how why and all that.. but what is the point of it? we are adults after all, or at least look like them. I did feel very sad and especially very sorry for whatever happent to my chicken doing all the following tho.
On my walk to the spot on the mountain, i had to pass by a hotel with few tourists with luggage waiting for their pickup bus. So carrying a dead chicken and a shovel or any garden tool to dig a hole, was not the best idea.. i think. After checking out my dead chicken for anything there for me to see (no poop, otherwise nothing weird) and saying the last goodbye, i put it in the 2 naylon colored bags to "hide" it and left for the spot.
The sun was comming up, you could just see a small part of the edge of the, orange at the time, sun, comming up from the sea. What a walk. After saying goodmorning to the tourists, after they replied i could hear them wispering "is it really 6:30", wondering where the h**l am i going so early in the morning. You see just after the hotel, its dead end. The very small mountain road just ends there, then the road continues with mountain rocks, its fenced and you usually see nobody else there other than sheep and goats that pass by sometimes. The grave of my favorite chicken is near a "dead end" isnt that ironic? I passed the fence, so its like i crossed the dead end..... creepy huh? Now as i type i think of it and for this walk it was like i guided my chicken to the "other side", i hope the soul of the bird felt protected with me doing that. Anyway, as i walked through the part of my land i watched for a nice spot that would have shade in the middle of the day and there would be no footsteps of animals.
I found a nice spot in the middle of 2 trees that kind of connected their folliage, making a nice shade. Wild bushes with thorns were blocking the way to this spot and no signs of footsteps could be seen. Ok here we are i thought, and took my chicken out of the bags and placed in between some rocks. I turned around and watched the sun for few moments, i thought of how would it be to live there forever. Peaceful and very quiet, guarded by thorns, the cool shade would be there later in the day while the sun was fully rised and was trying to heat up the chill air of the night. Nothing seemed wrong. The few moments of rest passed and i had to finish what i was doing before it got too hot. I could not dig, there was no soil either only rocks on a very sharp mountain edge above the "road". I used 5-6 big rocks to surround my chicken, then filled the hole with tiny stones, then used 2 big flat rocks on the top. Then i placed 3 small stones on the top of the "grave" to represent the love of my family to the chicken. Do i sound weird? Dont worry, i know. That chicken made me feel like i had another kid when it hatched, not that strong feeling but that feeling. I finished the grave by making 3 crosses on 3 of the big rocks, using other sharp rocks. I watched it for few seconds, done! I left feeling complete and not sad.
As i walked in home i say to my wife "i had to do this". She has told me she wouldnt have the power to do this and wondered how i could do what i was saying. But throwing that chicken to the garbage would be the biggest -spiritual- sin i would have ever done if that makes sense.
When i look up the mountain i can see the 2 trees but not the "grave" but i feel my chicken not only is there, but loves it, and finally can enjoy peace without my stupid bully flock pecking the head out of it. I feel good looking up there.
I cleaned up the cage, and it was all over. A normal happy day could start, we gave the presents to my daugter and she played all day, she got so tired that she is sleeping as early as 21:00 tonight. What a happy day.
While random events come to us in our lives, we are the only ones that know how much the feeling of remorse of doing something not the best way you could hurts you and affects your life, and in special events like that, its better to do the best you can. Who am i to decide if it is right to get rid of the chicken i brought to life and just get done with it fast and not bury it somewhere safe to have the chance to offer eternal peace and love to some soul, in the case there are souls that i personally believe.
Now there is nothing more to be done
EXCEPT THROWING THE REST OF MY FLOCK TO THE MEAT GRINDER ALIVE. Which is another story and does not belong to this certain post.